Tuesday, November 16, 2004Y
angels madness ...
gd morning charlie ... gd morning angels ...
haha ... sorry , been crazy over charlie's angels since yday ... the show is so nice ... n the three of them r hot ... how i wish i could b one of them ... reali fat hope ... feel like learnin some kong fu after watchin ... hee ... it's crazy i noe ...
mum's back ... n it's hell for me again ... yday , cos i told her i go out with poly friends on thurs (which is going out with him) , she nag at me n say tat i was so close to them ... every of their activity i oso join ... excuse me , i feel like shoutin ! last time alan bday i din go , iris bday i din go , they go airport i din go n they overnite at chalet i cant stay ... i feel like i am starting to get further away frm them liao , wat she still wan me to do ... i mean havin my sec sch friends is reali da best le , but poly friends oso impt wat ... they have to pei u through tis 3 years , give u encouragement when u r down or stress ... n wat abt group work ... i long time never chat phone with kai xin , long time never suan iris le ... so , wat does she still wan now ... she always onli noe how to use the religion to say me , say being friends with the world means enemy with the god ... oh , yday i reali almost shout at her tellin her i wanna quit ... den she still say their gatherin i dun take effort to go ! go out with my friends can , go out with them no ... i reali dun feel like going out yday wat , i mean there is charlie's angels to watch on tv ... somemor , i noe MH din go cos he at japan , so the mor i dun wan to go ... reali mad at her ... feel like suffocating ... i wan to grow up fast n go live on my own ... tell him tis today n he msg to say he cant imagine me livin on my own ... he say is very hard one ... i noe , is like u cant get money frm parents , got to pay fee , needs , n everythin urself ... by the time u pay finish all , u left with nothin mor to spend ... but i think havin less money i still will b happier than livin with her ... sometimes , i dun hate her , is jus tat i hate her using the religion to control me ... she never try to understand me ... i think by the time i 20 years old , i will live on my own , n tat time i will choose whether i wan to remain in the group anot ... she cant disown me , i dun mind at tat time ... havin breakdown yday , wonderin am i wasting his time too anot ... is like he can get married at his age le , but he seems to b very positive abt our future , thinkin tat i will reali b his wife or watever ... but i noe tis wun happen ... n i noe he will understand tis pt when i tell him , so mayb he will wan a break or wat i oso dunno ... haiz ... dun say abt tis le ...
today never go out , at first still thinkin of going out with jun , den later meet him , but after yday wat my mum say me , i think better not go out first , or else today i got to heard alot of naggin n if she say somethin like stay away frm friends , i will reali breakdown one ... to me , friends r reali impt in my life ... they bring happiness n when u r down , they r the ones to pull u up ... so i cant imagine world without them how will tat b ... is not like i dun have friends down there , but u noe , they r still not to close with me , mayb the closest with me one is my niece ... but compared to jun , iris , qi , grace n mor , i think her friendship with me is still so so ... ok ok ... i better stop myself frm sayin all these anymor ... think mum is comin , so i will end here ...
12:47 PM
