Saturday, November 13, 2004Y
feelin so damn tired ...
wat a great day to stay at hm ... somemor is rainin now , so cooling ... watch alot of vcds jus now ... watch mean girls n troy ... mean girls is not bad , quite nice ... quite a bitchy show ... haha ! troy i watch b4 , still love the love story of brad pitt with another girl ... but is mor on war fighting ...
yday went out with him , feel so happy , cos after one week plus , i finally can see him ... met him at yio chu kang mrt n later he drive to the nearby Mac to have our dinner ... when he look at my phone , haha ... mc call ... i feel so funny , pickin up the phone , hope he wun say somethin stupid or wat ... haha , den when i put down , he ask who is it , den i tell him lor ... he say i tok to him like very fierce like tat ... haha ! got meh , i was thinkin ... den later , we at first decided to go marina there one , but he forgot how to drive there le , so we end up going to bishan park ... speakin of park , make me think of the past ... nvm , dun bring it up again ... den we go walk walk ard the park holdin hands lor ... quite special , cos i have never go on a real date with him yet ... but sometime , he reali make me feel a bit pei sai , he can suddenly walk half way , den in the middle of the road hug me one ... sweet , but ... den , we walk tired le , so go find a place to sit ... so we manage to find a place where no ppl is ard , quite peaceful ... he quickly sit down first ... somemor in the middle of the seat , so i was thinkin , u sit like tat yao wo zhuo na li ... den in the end , he tell me to sit on his lap ... hee ... it was quite sweet i admit ... so he so call hug me frm behind , den started talkin ... but haiz , too bad , the tree block the view of lookin at stars ... (but i doubt tat nite got stars to see) den later , we started kissin ... kind of normal for us le , but den the kiss got mor intense n he start to get mor touchy ... jun say couples will be like tat ... but sometimes i tot i quite bao shou one , but y yday i will actually allow him to do all those to me ... we r now up another stage ... sometimes reali feel tat things will happen too fast n honestly , feel a little scared n confused ... he eat alot of tou fu last nite ... n my gum hurts a bit cos of his teeth ... somemor got a love bite frm him ... he did sms me yday nite to apologise if i feel scared of wat ... at least he did ... i dun wan say the details out , or else ppl readin it will oso feel so strange like tat ... ya , i finally say wo hen ai ni to him last nite ... think he shuld b very happy for hearin it ... yday nite was quite sweet actually , esp the sittin on the lap part , is like i have been sittin there for 30 mins n i noe it will hurt alot , but den he jus continue to let me sit ... think we share the longest kiss yday nite ... like the feelin u never get enough ... somemor i become his xiao zhu now again ... but i still lack the courage of tellin him my religion , cos i feel tat if i say it , everythin will b like over for us ... at tis moment , a bit cant afford to lose him le ... he mention abt marryin me last nite , but my whole mind is tellin me it's not possible ... haiz , y cant i choose which family i will get born ... din have a gd slp last nite somemor ... slp at 1 , wake up at 5 n keep on thinkin abt last nite , in the park n his car ... den i think ard 6 den i fall back to slp again ... was so tired now , at nite still muz go out , how i wish can stay at hm jus for tonite ... he say he wan to meet me on mon , but mum jus got back , so how ... he say he will buy me a ring n add on tat once i wear it , i cant easily give up on him ... everythin seem like fine to me , but cos of my mum n the religion , i seem not to b reali enjoyin it ... he can see tat yday my mind is full of tots , jus tat i never mention to him ... 'nothin' is how i reply him ... haiz , dun feel like sayin tis anymor ... jus make myself get mor hurt onli ...
hao ba , think end here first ... write quite long already , mayb later meetin iris ... go buy her cousin present ... me now go check my hp got msg anot ... sayonara !
7:30 AM
