Thursday, November 18, 2004Y
haiz ...
haha ... the title sound so sickenin rite ... but wat can i do , i feel reali down these few days , since my mum is back i can say ... today is better , cos she went out to work , so i can stay at hm rot without her naggin ... somemor , my dad is out to help me get my Spiderman 2 DVD ... hooray ! love my dad so much ... haha ... today actually got alot of show to watch at nite ... got sch bella , the 9pm new show , amazing race ... woah ... hope today will b a great day for me ... haiz , sometime , i feel like i dun belong to tis world , or i shuld say i shuld not belong here ... is kinda painful ... reali feel like runnin away or dying these few days ... i noe i am foolish to have tis kind of tot , but i reali feel tat i onli left 30% of wantin to live ... 10% is my dad , 10% is my close friends n another 10% is him ... i noe the last 10% is very unstable , i can lose it anyime ... since when i become so negative ... jus got a call frm dad , he say the DVD is sold out ... haiz ... den wat am i going to do tis afternoon ... very sian de u noe ... suddenly now reali feel so sian ... tot i can have my spiderman to cheer me up , but end up nothin ... ya , nvm , continue with wat i say ... actually oso nothin la , jus feel tat i reali need time to cool down first lor ... in case i do somethin silly n i cant even have the chance to regret it in the future ...
watch shark tales yday with my cousin n her friend ... it's a bad experience , n i dun feel like writin it out again ... it's the first time i went in the cinema , going to watch a comedy n cry when the show start ... so pathetic rite ... anw , the show is not bad , but not reali nice tat kind ... u wun have the urge to see the 2nd time ... tell him wat happen , n he is so ji dong ... say ask her to come see him n he will give her a slap ... oh my ... i dunno even noe i shuld feel happy or wat when he say tis ... so damn violent lor ... regret tellin him a bit ... anw , no mood to write anymor (think is becos of my DVD) ... haiz ...
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