Monday, November 22, 2004Y
it's been a hard week for me ...
oh , i am back with mor complaints abt my mum ... haiz ... but wat can i do , she dun seem to stop naggin at me these few days ... like yday , i tell her i am going out for a gathering , she say i always go gatherin one ... den today mornin say i slow , say i tis , say i tat , somemor say i can get diabetes ... wat the , like curse me like tat ... den jus now wanna go celebrate xin's bday , but of cos i cant say the reason la , so i say i go out with qi n grace (dun wan to mention iris name in case she say her again) ... den she say i always go out with them , so close with them n i never miss a chance of meetin them ... hello , when sometimes they meet at fri nite, i cant even go wat , jus tat she dunno they got go out onli ... den she say every gathering got my part in attendin ... haiz , i reali feel very tired le ... tired of listenin to her naggin , tired of seein her face when she give me tat kind of look , n i am tired of living le ... feel like slpin for 10 years n never wake up ... sometimes , i got tis crazy idea of losin my memory n lead a new life without them ... fresh new start ... with no pain ... but dun think is possible ... is either die or live ... he call jus now , ask me wat happen , cos frm the msg i send him yday nite , he can sense somethin is wrong ... ya , i feel tat i reali need support now , or else i will jus break down ... mayb sometimes , i go out with friends or him , i will always try to put on my smile , cos one person mood can reali affect the others ... but i wonder tis smile can put how long ...
ya , yday finally went out with tok , chao rui n mian cun ... was ok , too bad cant catch any movie ... got bully by both of them when takin neo print ... n oso i lost my face in the mrt station all becos of tat stupid mian cun ... so many ppl watchin n he strangle n push me to the glass wall ... so ma lu ... yday went find him a while , but too bad a auntie keep on standin there n not leavin , so our conversation is mostly craps ... but can see him oso not bad la ... after quite long ma , since the park thing ...
k la , feel so tired ... tat jun say wan to online n chat one , n till now i cant see the sight of her ... wonder where she is ... or her dad is scoldin her again ... i hope not ... now she is quite pathetic like me ... n ya , add one mor pt , by now i still dun understand wat my mum wan my gd friends to b who ... is ok , i think i dun wanna find out ... cos i already got all my goody friends with me ...
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