Welcome to yingyingstar.blogspot.com

- xinying, but can call me lin or ying
- 21 years old at last
- working as interior designer rite now
- born in 5th jun

- him aka dear dear
- my friends
- slp
- listenin to music + singing
- fashion & bridal mag
- shopping
- chatting on phone

- going vacation to many places
- be a tai tai
- the 'IT' bag
- my big snoopy balloon
- iPod touch 16GB
- COACH photoframe keychain
- woodstock crystal
- to love my dear dear always

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恋爱达人

合:hey you 就是你 请靠近我怀里
别假装不在意 你明明动了心
So baby 就是你 请不要再犹豫
我们玩个游戏 叫l.o.v.e

(小s)给你一分钟 若还不心动
你就是没种 装再酷也知道没用

罗:baby 你不会懂 我就是要你心急
我恋爱无敌 可是她等得很急

合:hey you 就是你 请靠近我怀里
别假装不在意 你明明动了心
So baby 就是你 请不要再犹豫
我们玩个游戏 叫l.o.v.e yeah yes i do

罗:眼神不能在乎 态度若有似无
你自然就会 跟我走 情场路

(小s)你到底行不行 竟玩无聊的招数
我看过的猪 可是达人的程度 come on

合:hey you 就是你 请靠近我怀里
别假装不在意 我可能喜欢你
So baby就是你 请说你很开心
我有点喜欢你 有点喜欢你

Rap:哈哈 爱是个ya关系
它让我的身边 成为达人恋爱的机器
谁遇见你 连达人也会认输
Ya 为什麽是你 我只想 ha

罗:为什麽喜欢你 我已喜欢你 yeah~

(小s)u're so cute so won't u come to me
猪头才会一直玩游戏 耍心机

合:baby 就是你 请靠近我怀里
别假装不在意 我想我喜欢你
So baby就是你 请说你也愿意
我一直喜欢你 一直喜欢你~

合:baby 就是你 请靠近我怀里
别假装不在意 我想我喜欢你
So baby就是你 请说你也愿意
我非常喜欢你 非常喜欢你

罗:非常喜欢你

haha ... tis is a song i currently very crazy abt ... it's so de very nice ... esp the part where it change frm not sure to i sure n very like u tat kind ... i hope i can play on the web here , but jus dun reali noe how to do ... hee ...

he never call yday , n today oso no msg ... i reali feel worried n sad at the same time ... feel like callin n see , but scared he busy with his work , den later got cold reply all these again ... dun wna tat to happen ... it's last day of 2004 le ... 2005 is reachin in jus abt 5 1/2 hrs ... haiZ ... will it b a gd year for me ... n even my friends ... they r going for countdown today , i cant go , cos no one to ask ... somemor i dun feel very well ... stomach cramp until very bad ... i seldom will cramp until like tat one ... is like i feel like i almost faint in the bus today ... my legs feel so jelly like tat ... den when i got hm at 1 , i jus quickly lay on my bed n slp ... guess wat , i slp until 5.30 lor ... but is like i still can continue slpin tat kind ... feel reali weak ... n now still cramp a bit , but not as bad as in the mornin ... somemor the bus today is not double decker , so i have to stand all the way to tampines , when i got down the bus , my legs reali feel so weak ... but luckily in the lecture still better ... den the guys behind play with my hair ... haha ... i kinda like ppl touchin my hair , it's like very nice ... n now he dun even noe i dun feel well ... when i need him now , he is not here for me ... he like MIA like tat ... i feel reali very xin ku ... physical n emotional ... can he dun treat me like tat ... all he say is lie ba ... he din reali mean it one rite ... nvm , see today he will call ma , if he reali din , den i think tat's it ... i oso dunno wat to do ... hao la , i still have to wait for my dinner ... mum comin back tonite ... dad say ard 11pm like tat ... sob , my so call mor free days r gone ... n these few free days , i din get to go out with him ... haiz ... pathetic rite ... mi got to take care ok ... at least i noe my friends still care alot abt me ... both sec n poly ... hee ...

y haven u call ... i wait for ur phone today the whole day again ... reply u oso no ans ... think i am reali givin up ...

haha ... been watchin tv all day today ... cos no sch for me on thurs ... back to read n update my tis blog ... like so long never step in here le ... haha ... i wonder how's everyone ... oh , qi , ris n grace watch kong fu hustle le ... so gd la , i haven watch ... den who pei wo go watch ... jun got to watch with her family ... haiz ... y they never ask me ... oh anw , the thing i am worryin abt is kinda not happenin ... haha ... mayb jun will understand wat i mean here , n mayb not ... these few days , never reali got any chance to see him ... cos he is jus so busy ... but yday got tok phone for a while , but honest speakin , it's kinda boring ... he say he too tired to tok , den even when i say joke , he say he too tired to laugh ... so it makes the whole conversion so pathetic ... n once again , the emtional me cry again ... mayb it's reali time to end everythin ... i dun like to live a double life ... i dun wan to b like spiderman , tore apart ... it reali hurts ok ... 'have u ever put urself into my shoes ?' is like i reali feel like i am the one always givin , n he's the one takin ... ha la ... y muz it b like tat ... even though i once told the others tat i will like to find someone i like mor than he like me , but is not to tis extreme ok ... suddenly feel like i wan to continue is jus becos i wan to break his record of his 10 months ... haha , am i crazy ... how can i treat tis kind of thing tis way ... saw him yday at taka when takin the escalator ... den finally i can show kai xin how he look like ... stand at B1 n look at the taka square there ... kai xin say he look so si wen ... haha ... got meh ... den say we reali look very pei ... she keep on sayin hen pei ni leh ... ah la ... pei so wat ... den stead for 3 months le , haven even receive any gifts ... i am not greedy lor ... he wan to give me a sweet i oso very happy de lor ... is like last time MH give me a chocolate , i alreadi like fly to the sky ... ya , speakin of him , he msh me on mon ... was so shock lor ... make me think of him ... den on mon , went causeway with jun a while , sit down at long john n tok ... talk abt alot of stuff ... cos she reject someone she used to like b4 , but like i say , is b4 ... as long as she is happy can liao ... 'anw , do u noe tat u r the first one tat when i first saw u , u give me a very different feelin ... a feelin to make me wan to noe u mor ...' haha ... i think when qi read tis , she will feel oh my gosh ... haha ... k la ... never reply his sms in the mornin ... oso cant meet him le, cos my dad is back ... like tat mayb oso better ... once again , feel so alone yday nite ... once again , hate myself last nite ... once again , i dunno wat to do reali last nite ... anw ... watch alot of movie yday n today ... charlie's angels 2 is not bad , but somehow i prefer the first one ... but is a kick ass movie ... watch bring it on , watch it again actually , but still so nice , kristen dunst so young ... n the guy is cute ... how to deal , a show by mandy moore ... it's kinda sad at the beginnin , a bit boring in the middle , n ok at the nite ... conclusion , it's ok onli ... haha ... wan to watch the luke wilson show ... he so cute too lor ... got the mature cute look ... haha ... ok la , end here ... wan to watch those movie again with my sis (cousin) ...

haha ... i type last christmas means yday ... k k , i noe i lame , but bear with me ... yday spent my day with my close friends ... we went to eat steamboat ... yeah ... it's so nice ... went marina bay there ... i think is better than seoul garden , n a little cheaper too ... eat a little , but drink alot of soup ... haha ... with all the 'purple veggie' ... hee ... in the end , our soup taste better ... cos qi side is too salty ... our's a little sweeter ... yeah ... was so fun ... b4 meetin iris they all , i went out with jun first to search his present ... in the end , i buy the noddin head one ... hee ... so cute lor ... is valentine version one ... haha ... den when we finish our steamboat , we went down to orchard to walk again ... saw agnes bf le ... woah , so opp of mine ... he so tall , n look so mature ... n so quiet ... haha ... but glad she found her xin fu , she still tell me in the very end to b happy in luv ... haha ... i hope i will la ... nvm , i help everyone get out of tat club first ... first is jun lor ... i will help her de ... but is she dun wan den i oso will stay by her ... yeah , jus receive the news tat my mum will go overseas on tues ... yeah !!! haha ... den it's party time for me again ... haha ... i so very de glad n happy ... yo yo yo ... haha ... nvm , i gone crazy ...

meet him a while jus now ... he come over to my place here ... den i give him tat present ... anw , alot of things kinda happen to him ... feel sad for him ... is like one of his collegues pass away , n is like he still got tok to him on tis fri ... oh my , den one girl he like b4 get married ... n he den now found out tat he used to reali like her ... cos he feel a bit guilty , cos he thinks tat girl is like rushin with her marriage ... like she dun reali like tat guy ... he says he wan best for her ...i dunno la , hear until like tat i feel like askin him den wat abt me ... den he say he scared will lose me like tat tis type of things , somemor he manage to read my msgs in my samsung phone ma ... den he say like i am givin him up like tat ... 'the way u kiss me today , feel so different n deep ...' haiz ... den like tat lor , my phone now is back with me ... y his malaysia sim card can use ... den we jus sit in car lor ... cos i oso need to go back hm soon ... i wish i can stay in his hug forever ... the moon is so round today too , somemor jus nice in front of us ... today , when i travel alone , i think of our past , when we haven start steadin tat time , it's so funny lor ... like he teachin me how to walk , wan to hold my hand , but dunno wat i will do ... haha ... actually , sometimes i think , friends can b mor fun n better too ... i dunno ... soemtimes , i jus wan us to b like b4 ... sometimes like now ... mayb our minds r always playin tricks with us ... like wat spiderman say ... anw , his dog is so cute lor ... so white n the eyes , so round n black ... haha ... k la ... think i write a bit long le , tomoro still got sch leh ... muz slp mor early ... esp i am so tired ... nite nite for me ...

3 'YOU' for our 3 months
1. miss you
2. need you
3. love you

tat's wat i write on the tiny card for him ... haha ...

i am back ... after few days of disapperance ... haha ... now back to sch le , everyday seem so different , like u dunno wat's next for u ... holiday is like u noe u either plan to go out or jus rot at hm ... but havin sch oso not bad ... i can dun need to face my mum everyday ... den oso i can sometimes go hm late ... hee ... but den schoolin is so stress ... with major project comin those kind ... haiz ... anw , miss out one pt on my last entry tat make me feel so sad ... tat is my hp spoilt ... is not even 2 months yet n it spoilt ... sob sob ... u noe , tis oso very stress , cos i cant sell n buyin a new phone like going to pay some money ... i noe my dad wun say anythin but i do feel bad ...

yday went out with him ... to JB somemor ... haha ... at first wheni reach custom rite , i suddenly dun feel like going , cos the queue is so damn long la ... den i somehow guess he got excess card one ma , so sure very fast one ... den i have to b alone waitin in the long queue ... seem a bit scary ... den oso jun say she wanna meet me ma , so i tot like mayb i meet jun first den later ask him to drive n come find me ... but he keep on askin me to go JB with him a while ... n later when we come back frm withdrawin some money , the queue become much shorter ... so i say agree lor ... but he keep on sayin like i bu yuan yi like tat ... like pull a long face ... he ah ... sometimes make me feel so dot dot dot ... haha ... den we go catch a movie in JB ... go watch polar express , cos is the nearest time slot ... haha ... tat show like wat ris say , is reali kiddy n magical ... so almost half of the show we r playin with each other la ... like feedin popcorn with our mouth ... ha ... feel sweet but yet stupid ... den later we go other place to eat our so call lunch cum dinner ... den after eatin , we sit in his car n he tell me abt his past love stories ... he tell me the one tat time he reali loved one is somethin like love at first sight ... it's kinda funny ... like those we see on show tat type one ... but den oso make me worry a bit ... cos he got tell me tat he is with someone but den he like tat girl ... oh my ... will tis happen to me ... mayb he now alreadi like someone behind my back ... forget to qn him yday ... den later , we decide to drive out to singapore cos i scared my dad will call me ard evenin time n i cant b reach ... somemor still got to find jun ma ... den when waitin at custom , he tell me he headache , so in the end , i become massager ... first the neck den his hand ... massage until my hands reali very suan ... i think got like 1 hr plus like tat ... den when reach , i call jun , den she tell me dun need to meet me le ... haiz ... tot of meetin her n ask her how's she le ... is she going to leave her club ... haha ... nvm ... so in the end , we both oso dunno where to go ... n jus drive , like tour ard , den in the end , we go back to tat bishan park ... but we din go to the park , jus park at the nearby car park ... den he say he veri tired n still headache , so he jus lay on my lap n slp ... n he reali slp ... like those little kid like tat ... i wan to move oso cannot ... haiz ... den 933 play hou niao ... wan to switch on louder oso cannot ... hand cant reach ... haiz , den so call miss tat song again ... den is when i reali go n reach for it , he woke up ... but den he still continue to lay there ... i tell him to slp mor den he say scared i bored ... den after he lay a while , he sit up den we do some talkin n huggin lor ... em ... n somethin happen la ... but not going to write out la ... den ard 9 like tat , he send me back lor ... at first , he keep askin me can pei him longer anot , cos we cant meet on christmas ma ... den i say reali cant lor , is not like my mum is not in ... haiz ... sometimes , i reali hate relationship ... they make u feel happy n confused at the same time ... makin u keep on thinkin n thinkin ... den mostly is negative thinkin all these ... so am i reali xin fu , i actually still not very sure ... tryin not to think too much , like wat he say to me ... can i ... i will try ok ...

haiz ... today no sch ... stay at hm n later muz do kk work ... but think i will go take a nap first ... yday was so tired ... like energy drained ... den today my mum still wake me up quite early ... at first tot mayb can meet jun ... but den she say she got project to do ... haiz ... haven buy our 3 months present ... tot of somethin to buy le ... but muz go action city n find ... nvm , mayb when out with my friends on sat , i can go find ... n i break my own record le ... last time with sean onli 2 months plus ... hope mine can reali last lor ... he yday oso got say wat , if he willin to marry me , will i agree ... den he say wait till i 21 den see ... 21 , tat will take abt another 3 to 4 years time ... see we can last tat long ma lor ... hao la ... me go slp a while first le ... long entry again ... hee !

haiz ... i think i reali siao these few days la ... yday is my breakin down day ... been cryin the whole nite ... at first , i reply him tat i reali dunno wat i am feelin , den he say he will call me later ... but den tat msg is at 8 plus lor ... i wait until 11 plus oso dun have his call ... so i jus msg him , tell him i am tired , den oso add tat i am tired of waitin for his call oso ... den after 20 mins like tat , he jus msg back 'ok. gd nite.' ... wah ... my heart reali breaks tat time , is like he sounds angry n dun even care abt me ... i msg like tat means askin him to call fast , den he jus give me tis kind of ans ... my tears jus flow n flow , non-stoppin like tat ... feel like i been cryin alot tis month ... every bad things come so fast ... first , my mum . den my modules , still got my skin , is gettin worse these few days ... den i oso feel like i driftin away frm my friends ... den oso him ... i reali feel very tired ... i sometimes dunno y am i still livin ... dec seems such a bad month for me ... i wonder will i survive through to 2005 ... den when yday i cry , feel like talkin to someone , but jus dunno who ... feel like tellin jun , but scared bother her , cos noe tat she is doin her hw ... so i am cryin alone ... suddenly very afraid of nite time , is like when nite time reach , i will somehow feel very lonely ... like today in studio , the opp is so happenin , n my area , onli me alone , sittin down there doing nothin ... heart hurts n breaks at the same time ... den ard at 12 am , den he got msg , say scared he call we will quarrel , but he still love n miss me ... haiz ... at tat time, i feel a little bit glad , but den it's onli for a while ... cos i reply him tellin him i oso dunno wat i am feelin , jus noe tat my heart hurts alot , n oso tell him tat i feel so alone ... i reply him at 12.08 like tat , den i wait n wait , still no reply ... so the tears start to flow again ... n i am reali tired le ... so in the end go slp ... with the whole pillow wet ... but when i woke up today , he actually got call , but is at 1 am ... woah ... wat took him so long ... thinkin muz call me anot is it ... haiz ... den today mornin sms me say wan to tok to me , if i havin break den msg him ... so i did lor ... he call n ask me how i feelin le , got any better ma ... i tell him still ok lor ... haiz ... den he call in the evenin again , but i din pick up , in the end got to call back him later ... tok nothin much ... think i reali need some time to cool down ... he say wan to meet me tomoro mornin b4 i go sch ... i oso dunno la ... see first lor ... haiz , wonder if he dun call again later , i will have to slp on wet pillow today again ... jun say i reali can tolerate him ... somemor yday when he coldly reply me , i still can tell him to take care n rest well ... haha ... i oso think i too pro ... k la , got to do kk work le ... see ya ...

haiz ... am i crazy ... think i reali siao ... i din reply his sms , return his call , or even pick up his call ... haha ... i think i am like givin up like tat ... aiyo ... y am i like tat ... but i reali dunno ... mayb i am emotionally tired ba ... den today he msg askin me wat's wrong , den ask me to reply n tell him wat happen ... but i still din reply ... dunno to reply wat ... like say everythin oso wrong ... anw , today too bad cant go see tok cosplay ... sure very fun de ... hao la , no mood to type mor ... mayb later ba ... see ya ...

wahaha ... watch spiderman 2 tis whole afternoon ... watch the movie fist , den watch the makin those kind of things ... den watch the movie again , by skippin some parts ... wan to see peter parker n MJ together ... they both so sweet ... how i wish my relationship will oso b like tat ... hee ... but i noe it wun b ... haiz ... is every relation like tat ... i am losin faith in u le ... do u noe tat ... tat's y i choose not to reply ur sms today ... i feel tired le ... u noe ... tired of heart breakin , tired of cryin for u ... so today ... my spiderman did cheer me up , or else i think my pillow will b wet again ... haha ... gosh ... reali love tat movie ... want part 3 to come up first ... y muz i wait until 2007 ... it's so long ... i grad frm poly le by den ... cant it b 2005 or 2006 ... at least it's not tat long ... but i got a feelin part 3 will do MJ die or somethin like tat ... haiz ... pls dun ... love they both together ... still cant believe they r like enemies in real life ... gosh again ... today slp until so late ... until 12 ... somemor i slp at 12 ... so 12 hrs ... was feelin reali damn tired ... dunno y ... yday went out to eat lunch with him b4 his work ... was still ok ... but today , dunno y ... mayb the fault lies with me ba ... i feel so tired ... it's so painful(adapted frm MJ) ... haiz ... jus wanna say sorry for my cold reply , but hey , i hope u wun call tonite ... the truth is , i dunno how i will tok to u tonite ... so prefer u not callin ... if u reali call , i might not pick up ... sorry for tis moody me , but i jus cant help it ... i wan to go watch zhen qing le ...

haha ... wonder y is my title like tat ba ... anw , jus wanna tok abt my phone first ... it's spoilt ... totally ... haiz ... all my msg n photo gone ... y ... someone pls tell me ... ya , n i oso tot my dad will scold me ... cos tis phone is so brand new lor ... haiz again ... but in the end , he jus say i careless onli ... den din say much ... somemor he pay for my spiderman 2 DVD n converse sneakers ... thanks dad ... love ya ... but he tell me somethin which make me unhappy today ... he says my mum always complain to him or even a bit like scold him cos she say i always talkin on phone at late nite ... got meh ... onli last time she saw once i talk with iris onli ... wat the ... say my dad pamper me too much ... she think wat ... my dad dun need to treat me the same way she treat me lor ... feel so angry ... but wat can i do ... basically nothin ... haiz ...

nowadays , jus feel like rottin at hm n not going sch ... lessons r boring , hw r stress ... so going out for activity is best , with my mum not controllin me ... but kinda impossible ... anw , he reali din call last nite ... den msg me at midnite tell me not to b angry ... wat can i say ... i feel so numb le lor ... he did tat so many times le ... tell me not to sad ... den jus finish talkin phone with him a while , he still so bad , laugh abt my hp , den say i careless , like lecture me like tat ... i dun need tat lor ... if u wan to say all these , i prefer u not callin ... i feel so wat with u these few days ... dunno wat words to put ... u ask me when can we meet , i say one month , mayb u tot i am jokin , but somehow i mean it ... dunno y ... is not the feelings gone , is jus tat i feel tired .. mayb i cant feel the care frm u ... mayb the words u say i think is jus made up ... mayb when u see me , u give me hugs n kisses is jus becos u need it ... i dunno ... somehow , i feel a bit distance frm u le ... i dun wish to feel tis way , but sorry ... for tis moment , i wun break with u , cos i still like u alot , but mayb i need some time to cool down ... sometimes , i hope u try to understand wat i feel , but most of the time , u fail ... for me , listenin to ur voice , seein u is the most happy things ... most contented tat kind ... whenever i am feelin sad or down or wat , somethin to do with u i will smile n b mor happy ... but r u like tat ... i reali dunno ... i say i wanna trust u ... but can i ? love reali hurts ... everytime u say u wan to see me , is it becos u jus wan to b with me , or u wan somethin out frm me ... i reali dunno ... i feel so confused ... mayb i shuldn't b thinkin too much ... mayb u reali love me deep down frm ur heart ... i reali wish tis is the case ... but u give me the feelin tat , it's anythin one ... if i say break those things , he will jus carry on , like no pain like tat ... haiz ... u jus now say wan to say alot of things to me , but u prefer talkin in person , i say u jus tell me now , u still prefer not ... i wonder will u remember wat u gonna say , n wat r those u wan to say ... honest speakin , i jus feel very insecure ... n jus now on the phone , i reali almost feel like shoutin at u , or quarrel with u ... jus tat i cant bring myself to do tat , cos i dun wan to lose u ... i try to put my real feelin deep down my heart where u cant even find it ... yday , jun told me abt damian ... she say he jus come up to their group n ask where am i ... n when they say i din came , he jus walk off , without sayin any hi to them like tat ... n jun feel like killin him ... n got someone ask jun , they tot me n damian over so long le , y he still ask abt me ... i oso wonder myself ... mayb he wan to give me my chocolates ... or he jus wan to chat a bit with me , like catchin up ... cos last tiem on MSN he oso got tok to me first like tat ... den today , i think of the gd times in sec 2 ... even though me din end up with him , but at least , he make me feel secure all these ... he never fail to stay by my side when i am down ... den wat abt u ... when on the phone , i wan to tell u my prob , u jus keep on talkin abt ur own stuff ... n some stuff i dun even understand ... i try to listen , but u noe , it's tired ... esp when i feel down ... den in the end , when u finish ur tok , u say u have to put down phone cos either u r drivin off , or u r going to enter malaysia ... sometimes , i hope u can give me surprises , but still no ... i tell myself not to expect too much frm u ... haiz ... carry on sayin will jus make me think of the past ... n i dun like comparin u with other ppl , cos i noe is unfair ... n oso everybody is different in their own ways ... u say u r going to call later ... u better do , or else , dun blame me for not wantin to see u mor ...

k la ... dun complain abt u le ... i dun wan to do tat too ... jus let me say out my feelin on the blog ... cos continue like tat , i will burst one day ... n oso , i feel tat i a bit further away frm jun le ... mayb we r both busy with our own things ... now , we seldom tok on phone le ... sad huh ... so i now cant complain my things to her le ... ris n qi ah , sometimes i will tell them a little lor , but u noe , onli jun reali somehow understand wat i reali think sometimes ... mayb way of thinkin the same ba ... cos train by strict dad n mum ... haha ... hao la ... gotta end , need to touch up on my board ...

haiz ... my hp is spoil !!! haven go service yet , but can still say is spoilt ... feel like crying ... it drop inside the stupid toilet bowl ... wa , first time in my life ... i remember i got drop things inside toilet bowl b4 , but is somethin not tat impt ... wa la , how can my jacket treat me tis way ... somemor is new phone , onli 2 months onli ... haiz ... so now got to use my old phone , no colour n somemor the ring tone monotone ... pathetic rite ... haiz ... hope it can b repair , with no info gone ... den tat will b the best ...

today , jun , ris n qi come to my sch to see see ... haha ... n guess wat ... i still dunno where the sports hall until today ... too bad they cant experience the feelin of rottin in the studio ... went to watch kobe n delvin play pool in the mornin , at first wan to go sing k box with kai xin one , but den she say other say ba ... oso , i have to go with jun they all one day ... went to see my converse shoes today ... think i will buy next week ... feel so tired even since started sch ... haiz ... y ahven he call ... wonder he receive my reply in the noon ma ... cos no , he might think tat my phone is still out of reach ... feel like callin him to see he still in singapore ma ... but scared myself got hurt ... cos on mon , after i finish talkin phone with him , i dunno y ... there is a sudden heart pain ... is like even though we continue talkin like b4 , but i dun feel there is any connection like tat ... mayb i am reali thinkin too much ... plus the stress tat my mum is givin me these few days , i reali breakdown cryin tat nite ... cry until headache tat kind ... long time never cry like tat le ... cry until when i wake up , i feel headache n oso my eyes 'zhong' ... den got the feelin of not going sch ... is like whole person feel so numb , heart alreadi die like tat ... tat nite , i dun wish to have it anymor ... i think is enough for me ... one mor breakdown n tat will b the end for me ... sometimes , i wonder will i cry until there is no tears left ... haha ... stupid thinkin rite ... but nvm ... at least i am thinkin somethin ... he promise he will call or msg everyday after his work one , y still nothin frm him ... somemor he work mornin today ... anw , mor n mor ppl is leavin jun's club ... hope everyone leave n i never go back ... actually , wat bernard say to me oso somehow make some sense , mayb i shuld reali give some tot for it ... but i am tired of thinkin , cos once think , fan again ... haiz ... when will all these end ... i hope is very soon ... hao la ... think i better quickly use finish com cos my cousin wan to use ... anw , tomoro no sch , got to bring my hp for service ... haiz again ...

today is boring ... plus i am too tired ... cos of tat stupid him la ... noe i tomoro got sch still call me late ... somemor at directly 12 am ... haha ... he think he prince charmin huh ... 12 am ... den i tot we will jus chat a while ... but to my surprise , we chat abt an hr like tat ... so i slp at 1 am in the end ... haiz ... the marketin class today is quite fun , but the buyer beheviour , which is oso same like marketin , was so boring ... i feel like slpin in the class ... haha ... but den my poly friends r all so cute n siao today ... cos i look at the new jay chou bk , which one of my classmate got , den kai xin walk past n so call snatch the bk ... n she read , den she read out , tat part is tokin abt his luv life one , den they all tease me ... say jay like gentle girl ... xiao niao yi ren ... haha ... den they say i dun behave like one ... so they all keep on sayin me , cos they noe i like jay ... but den they say until like he will b my bf tat kind ... haha ! i wish la ... hee ... frm tat bk , i can sense tat he might not b a gd husband or lover , cos he is always busy with music , but he is a gd father ... can see tat he will treat his child very gd one ... n he say cos he is frm a broken family , he dun wan him to do tat to his child all these too ... so gd rite ... haha ! hao la ... i think i need to go watch my tv n draw my art ... haiz !

someone pls tell me y ... at tis pt , i reali feel like dying ... i feel tat the whloe world is not worth livin for ... n trust me ... i reali mean tat ... is like the ones i love , my mum say i cant love ... the one i can love , i dun reali love ... the ones i love is of cos my friends , dad n him n mayb MH ... the one i can love is mum , n her friends ... haiz ... someone pls tell me y am i still livin ... i reali hate my life ... jus now on bus towards JB , i cry on the bus lor ... but i think no one notice it ... they all tot i was jus tired ... den my mum jus tot becos i am havin girls stuff , so kinda look lost like tat ... but the truth is not ... is her ! she is the one causin me all the heart pain ... i cant stand it anymor ... jus becos i come out of the toilet a little bit late she nag at me ... say i delay everybody time ... excuse me , there is still others in the toilet lor ... y muz she treat me tis way ... den when i ask her qn , she din even ans me , busy talkin with her friends ... i ask twice somemor ... nvm ... den i see the way she tok to others , like MH , she like treat them like her own son like tat ... i noe she always wan a son , but tat doesn't mean tat she have to treat her daughter tis way ... den whenever i reach hm , i go her room greet her , she will jus diao me n din greet me back ... hello ... me ur enemy is it ... dun need to diao me one lor ... den she will either jus keep quiet or tok to my dog ... today , i reali got the feelin of slpin forever ... my whole heart feel so hurt n tired ... den today din even got a chance to tok to him , even though he like stand beside me for many times ... sometimes i am reali wonderin how's he n tammy ... mayb they r reali together ... i dunno ... k la , going to watch my star search ...

back frm my stupid botanic garden trip ... i miss the fun of going out with iris they all ... they go sentosa today ... muz b so fun , except mayb the rain ... actually iris got ask me to join dinner with them , but when i receive her mag , me already outside han's of far east going in to eat already ... cos kai xin say she very hungry , i oso a bit ... n i oso cant jus leave kai xin out in the middle like tat ... so in the end i tell iris cant lor ... at first thinkin mayb when i go back hm , ask where r they n mayb can still go find them , but in the end , my dad call to ask me hm , n i see the watch , it think they oso go hm le , cos iris need to b back earlier than her mum ... so i alone took train hm , n kai xin went to meet my poly iris ... haha ... den in the train , he call , ask i outside ah ... i say ya , den he say wan to meet anot at my hse there , cos he is going hm too ma ... den i say ok lor , but i need to go hm fast ... den in the end , we reali meet , but for tat pathetic 10 mins ... haha ... very de ke lian rite ... was so sian at tat time ... he jus ask me wat bad dream i have at nite , den ask wat time i slp yday ... when he heard tat i slp 1 yday , i think he going to beat me ... haha ... cos he tell me to rest early ma , as yday i was reali damn tired ... cos play pool with my friends , go listen to the stupid NE tok den still got the heart breakin addin subj thing , so it make me so tired ... today go orchard , went to shop with kai xin a while ... wanted to buy some things , mayb clothes or pump , but in the end , end up with nothin ... at least kai xin buy an earring ... i saw one pump i like at my gripz shoe , but u noe the shop there very x one ... so no money la ... i prefer to buy the converse shoe with tat money ... haha ... think is mor worth ba ... den i went forever 21 to find tat time the clothes i like one ... wa , can find any piece now ... scary ... but the store still like pasa malam ... haha ! saw another clothes quite nice , but there , onli left 1 piece n the size not correct ... aiya , i tell jun le , wait next time they mor neat le den we go buy ... haha ... n the funniest thing is , when i meet him , he tell me he go eat mac with kai ting , den i ask him which mac , he tell me the wisma one ... ah la ! he at mac , den i jus at the opp forever 21 shop ... haha ! but i din see him la ... even though at tat time , i got a strange feelin he might b there , but i jus dun wan to go look in the window n see cos too much ppl le ... den he reali there ... haha ... but i wonder , if i reali spot him there , will i b angry ... n wat if they saw me , den how will me n him react ... cos kai ting still dunno abt us yet ... will we jus smile at each other n walk off ... haiz , jus read his msg ... he tot i angry he with kai ting ... but hmmm ... think i wun la ... say i will tust him le ma ... unless they r holdin hands or wat la ... haha ... hao la ... i need to go upload pix le ... see ya ...

somewhere ... i muz find somewhere to bring out the real me ... haiz ... but where ... so sian , yday tok phone halfway with ris , den mum wake up n look at me ... later still go my room check ... somemor , when i go hm yday , when i tok to her , she give me tat kind of face n din tok to me ... haiz ... nvm , i feel numb le ...

AH ! i cant add any mor modules , cos i go too late le ... all space full ... y i so stupid ... shuld have ask kai xin to help me do on thurs ... n they all got wat they wan n onli me still pathetic 4 modules ... think i will reali die the next semester ... i will b so busy n stress out ... yday on the bus i almost cry out , cos the music i am listenin (the elva song) n when i think of my modules ... nvm , muz b brave ... think positive ...so i can concentrate on my IAD project 1 now ... muz score at least a B for it ... no D for me tis time ... cos i got so much time to concentrate on tis 4 modules ... all the best for me ... i wish i can do it one ...

yday went out meet him ... go yishun meet him , cos the stupid him dun wan to come tampines pick me ... haha ! no la ... i still glad tat he rush back frm KL jus to meet me ... hee ! feel so xin fu to b with him ... even though like wat jun say , he sometimes dun express his feelin well , but den haiz ... relationship muz have trust rite ... so i have n need to trust him ... he promise he wun make me cry again ... ("v") haha ! does tis look like a heart ? yday actually we did nothin much la ... i jus eat my dinner inside his car , den he drive to my near my hm there , den we jus stay in his car cuddling lor ... cos yday i was too tired ... he oso ... we both almost jus slp inside the car lor ... quite sweet la ... n he oso cant dun wish to let me go hm ... she bu de ... haha ! i oso she bu de ma ... go hm muz face my mum ... but i tell him we still can meet next time one ma ... haha ... he jus msg me to tell me he had a sweet dream last nite ... so opp of me ... i had bad dream ... dream of my mum again ... dream until i cry again ... can reali feel the heart pain tat kind ... i wish we can last forever ... yday buy cleo mag , got one article is say how far will u go for love ... n they got tok abt the religion one ... n oso got one person like abt the same case as me ... her parents force them to break up ... but the guy still like her alot ... but den the advisor say is better to jus quickly break as not to let ur heart break further mor ... haiz ... shuld i do tat too ... cant bring myself to say lor ... ah la ... fan ... nvm ... take one step at a time ... k la ... i need to go bath le ... later going botanic with kai xin ... for the stupid IAD project 1 ...

wa , long time never write an entry in here le , all becos of busy sch time ... haiz , got to wake up early , so tiring ... i am now thinkin of addin a subj , but dunno which subj ... wan photography , but den my mum keep on sayin it's very expensive ... ah la , pour cold water again ... tell me not to learn , say go learn my piano better ... hello , i need the credit units to pass leh ... n if i dun take any modules now , mext time i will b very busy one ... now tis sem already got IAD project 1 , which is a very big project , even rachna say muz work 24 hrs one ... 7 credit units , wat u think , surely alot of hard work ... b prepared to suffer beginnin next week ... go sch le , dun need to face my mum everyday le , yeah ... but sch is tiring oso ... haha ... so which is better ... i oso dunno ... mon went out with him , he was late for 40 mins ... haha ! but haiz , noe he very hard to come out la , somemor rainin days ... we jus went to eat n go walk walk a while lor ... still can la ...

jus now meet jun for a while , do some catchin up ... haiz , think y me n her parents all so stirct one ... y cant we b like our poly friends ... wan to stay over den stay over , go hm late oso nvm , the most got nag a little bit ... if i reach hm 3am , my naggin wun b little bit , i can even think of not going hm ... y cant we choose the family we born into ... reali tired le ... wan to break free ... k la , suddenly i feel so tired , write mor tomoro , cos no sch ... yeah !

他和她的故事

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转眼之间

爱 距离自己多远 爱 是种无声语言我只有一夜又一夜 张开双眼想自己在时光里有多少改变 想自己对你还剩下了多少眷恋转眼之间 头发长了又要剪转眼之间 离开的朋友后来又忽然出现生命像一个圆圈 但你呢 依旧无言 爱成了虚线爱 也许就是种虚线 爱 只联系在心里面无论我们分开了 多久时间多少次寂寞了你房间留下了谁 多少次我疲倦了想试着去爱谁转眼之间 头发长了又要剪转眼之间 离开的朋友后来又忽然出现生命像一个圆圈 我们呢 我们的爱 却越行越远想自己在时光里有多少改变想自己对你还剩下了多少眷恋转眼之间 流行又转了一圈转眼之间 朋友们换了新身份携家带眷生命像一个圆圈 但你呢 怎么还没 出现转眼之间 头发长了又要剪转眼之间 离开的朋友后来又忽然出现生命像一个圆圈 我们呢 我们的爱 却越行越远

吻

如果时间能把我们的思念稀释了 从此以后互不相干各自爱着别的人 只要不遇见忽然下雨的清晨 在起床的时候 会莫名的失神 说好决定要努力忘了啊 为何还有泪停在脸颊 你身边是否还是那个她 取代我在你醒来吻你吗 取代我在你醒来吻你吗 如果当时我们都能够勇敢的承认 困为太在乎对方所以才倔强的等待着 后来每个失眠的午夜时分 还不愿意后悔 却忍不住会问 说好决定要努力忘了啊 为何还有泪停在脸颊 你身边是否还是那个她 取代我在你醒来吻你吗 取代我在你醒来吻你吗 那段流着眼泪寻找解答的日子 已过去了 只是没想到爱情要 我们付出漫长想念代价 说好决定要努力忘了啊 为何还有泪停在脸颊 你身边是否还是那个她 取代我在你醒来吻你吗 取代我在你醒来吻你吗

all three songs is by elva , cos yday kai xin lend me the cd ... n all the songs inside not bad ... the first one , the one i like best ... lyrics very true sometimes ... when i hear tis song tis two days , dunno y will cry ... mayb i scared one day tis will happen to me ba ... the second one is i find the lyrics quite meaningful , so can share with those readin my blog ... the third one , when i hear the lyrics , i will think of MH ... dunno y ... maby becos of tis phrase 说好决定要努力忘了啊 为何还有泪停在脸颊 你身边是否还是那个她 ... haiz ... hao la , write mor tomoro ...

i dun wan to care anymor now ... the mor i go n care , the mor i got hurt ... i think everyone might see my family as a nice family ... but the fact is , tis family is kinda cold ... no one tok to each other much ... like wat she say , we lack of bondin ... mayb the reason is her ... me n my cousin dun reali like tok to her cos she had such a hot temper tat we r all scared of ... my dad ... i dunno ... still ok ba ... but like today , i sit in the livin room thinkin , my family is going to no mor sooner or later ... i dunno how to phrase it ... cant find a better phrase too ... ah la , jus got a cut ... hurts so much ...

sometimes , i reali wish he can bring me away , away frm all these , away frm tis family ... i noe iris is not havin a gd time with her mum too ... but kinda differ case , but both quite serious ... i wish he can bring me far , not comin back anymor ... mayb out of tis world will b gd too ... today he say mayb one day bring me to sentosa to 'jump sea' ... i noe he is jokin , but hey , tat's a gd idea ... so i told him , i jump i will never come up ... haiz , am i foolish ... i dunno ... but these few days , i feel like i am reali feelin tired le ... the willpower to live on is fadin le ... my friends have been supportive for me , but , haiz ... i mean i cant see them often ... feel like i have drifted away ... bad rite ... n thanks , my parents r back ... sure she will nag at me usun com again ... k la , i will stop here ... got time i will write again ...

ENOUGH ! ENOUGH ! ENOUGH ! i had enough !

breakin down sooner or later ... jus leave me alone ...

if u think watever u say dun have an impact on me , now i tell u , it did ! stop naggin at me , stop screamin at me , stop ur everythin ... stop sayin hurtful words , stop sayin my friends , stop ur way of thinkin , cos i am now suffocating like hell ... i wish i have type tis earlier , but den my words will b mor harsh ... mayb i will even scold some vuguar words out ... y does she have to do tis to me , i am her daughter , not her maid ... i think she treat my dog like daughter ... she is jus tryin to cage me back again ... i wan my freedom ! my mind is full of hatred jus now ... i can throw or break anythin at tat time , but in the end , i jus sit on my bed n stare to the wall ... my whole heart is so numb ... no feelin , onli hatred ... my dad can see tat i am veri unhappy , n ya , i finally manage to fix my bracelet , but halfway with me breakin down into tears in between ... AH ! is after i watch my singapore idol den i got better , with a short nap too ... ya , taufik was gd , but sly 'i dream' moved me ... i dun feel like writin wat my mum say , it's actually very short , but deep impact ... n the most funny is , she dunno how i feel after tat , she dun even noe i am feelin damn down jus now ... k , i am not in the mood of talkin now ...

here i am freakin out again ... cos now den i release tat not every lesson got my friends pei me , like marketin , i still dunno who , den the buyer behaviour , ya is same time n day , but wat the , iris n del differ group frm mi ... feel like cryin suddenly ... so sad ! n scared too ... today go listen a talk ... haiz again ... make me mor fan onli ... tok abt friends again ... haiz ... i feel tired le ... den my mum still wan me to go out with her on thurs ... my onli free day she wan me out to preach with her ... AH ! feel like screamin ... i wan to leave tis world ... leave her ... i dun wan to think ... jus leave me alone ... everythin seems not rite ... reali very sian ... my world is like collapsing ... pls , tears dun drop ... haha ... think ever since i have tis blog , i been facin com everyday ... mayb now the com become my friend le ... when can i noe how to laugh freely , with no pain inside ... go check le , melissa same with me for marketin ... now left with my buyer behaviour ... it's a CDS leh , so means other sch oso can go in one ... den i go in class with so many ppl i dunno very sick one ... feel so tired n sian ... y is the world doing tis to me , to my friends ... k la , no mood to continue writin ... it will jus make me wan to cry ... mayb i am not strong ba ...

Semester Timetable for Lin Xinying
Day Start Finish Type Subject Group

Mon 9:0012:00 Lec MkDes T01
Mon 15:00 17:00 Lec Buy Beh L03
Tue 9:00 12:00 Lec IADP1 T04
Tue 13:00 17:00 Lec IADP1 T04
Wed 9:00 11:00 Tut Buy Beh T08
Fri 12:00 15:00 Lec ArcDT T03

tis is my timetable ... freakin out a bit ... it's reali opposite compared to my dream ... i onli got 4 subject to study ... 4! some of my friends got 5 or 6 like tat n i got 4 ... i onli got 2 core subject , 1 cds n 1 elective ... how can i jus get 1 elective ... i will die one lor ... which means next time i muz study mor ... how can ... lucky every class i got 1 or 2 friends with me ... or else mor sian ... i reali think my timetable too little le ... very scary ... how ... later still mus go check the subjects thing ...

n yday den i noe somethin , remember the nite when he din call n i cry like hell , oh, now i noe wat happen tat nite le ... he tell me after his work he go out with kai ting n hui xian ... i see ... den y din he call ... jus becos he go out with them dun mean tat he cant call ma ... nvm , i am thinkin too much again ... like wat aileen jus say to me , it's so sian ... n we r sensitive ... hao la ... go print my timetable for my mum , think she crazy , like wan to noe everytime , when i release class all these ... hate her man ... so she can call me n ask me where am i all these ... last semester she din even wan one ... ah la , den mornin she say me again becos yday i go out ... say i always go out ... wat the , last tues den u say no wonder i so guai stay at hm cos jun not in , den yday jus go out for one day , n back like 10 plus onli , she start her naggin all over again ... sian ... k la ... need to go check somethin le ...

haha ! taufik won ... i got vote one for him ... my cousins too , even though i din watch at all ... me went out with jun jus now , den later iris n jing come find us ... bought one thing tat i need to buy , or else cant wear my white skirt ... haha ... anw, let's tok abt jus now ... we went out , jun need to find present , n omg , she so low budget lor ... haha ... nvm , last time me worse ... hee ! den b4 iris n jing come , i actually got call him de , cos me at taka ma , so can find him lor ... but haiz , he jus pick up n say he busy n bye like tat ... woah ! den i like sayin i at taka , den he jus say ok n bye again ... den no choice but bye oso lor ... like jing went off to find LH , n we continue to hunt for my 'string' n jun's present ... anw , TOPSHOP , we r sorry for spoilin ur thing ... haha ... shhh , onli we 4 noe can liao ... den i manage to find mine , n we went to heeren to look for present ... go in one shop , bot one thing quite sweet , thinkin of buyin for him , but i think he no place to hang ... so let's not waste money ... den ris went to try out clothes , n i receive his msg ... oh , he actually got call me but i din hear ... den he tell me he havin break n eatin alone ... so i call him back n ask him wan me to pei him eat dinner ma ... den in the end , i go lor , have to pull ris n jun with me to cini too ... but too bad jun n ris dun wan to join , cos they scared they become sun ... haha ... den me n him go eat BK , but i onli eat onion ring ... but still quite full ... but fattenin ... haha ! den when we finish eatin , he pei me go upstair to find iris they all jus becoz he wan to tell them he return me back to them ... wat the ... he say i like object like tat , can pass ard ... den we went in mor than words n haha , lucky jun n ris never saw , cos jus now on mrt i confirm with jun , cos me n him got hug ma , so i was thinkin if they saw , dunno wat they will react , mayb very shock n dot ... haha ... n he sayi wear black look nice ... but haha , i dun have alot of black tops ... onli 3 now , with one new one n one my cousin giv me one , cos she dunno wanna wear le ... got alot of pink tops now ... think 4 like tat ... so later , he went back to work le , n i continue shoppin with them ... den later jing msg n ask us where r we n she wan to come find us ... so we tell her we go lot one find her ... n we did ... she seems so strong ... if is me , i dunno wat will happen , mayb cry or laugh like mad ... she reali love him alot , but too bad , the guy wan to b single ... haiz , world is reali unfair ... wonderin will i have to face tis prob too ? hope not ... k la , feel a bit tired n eyes like very blur le , think muz go rest le ... yeah , i am so excited tat when ris say they will come to my sch n find me ... i mean i am proud of my sch surroundin ... hee ... n i like them to b here ... how i wish they can study with me too ... speakin of study , my timetable is reali out tomoro , jus pray hard tat nothin will clash or wat ... n i dun like long hrs of studyin n oso i can b in same class with my gd friends ... hate to go into the class w/o knowin anyone , like a bit feelin startin all over again ... anw , helen jus now msg me , askin us whether wan go sentosa tis sat ... think all my friends got go ba , like kai xin , iris , xin ni , del they all ... haiz , miss them quite alot too ... hope we all can b in same class , like last time COMDI , jusri class , aida class , rachna class with kai xin ... ya , long time never hear frm melissa too ... hope she totally recover when sch reopen ... western fd again when we go back ... haha ! 6th of dec , am i happy or sian ... happy cos can see friends le , sian cos have to study le ... anw , ris say tat next sat go sentosa , haiz , still wonderin can ma ... cos next sun go JB again , scared my mum say dun let me go cos will return hm late ... see first ba , anw , i open sch le , dun even noe will b busy ma ... let's hope not ... hao la , say wan to go rest still type so much ... love all my friends out there , sec n poly ... gd nite to me , tomoro mornin i will watch my recorded singapore idol ... actually , i quite support sly , but den thinkin of him going world idol , i think taufik better ... scared simon will say somethin stupid ... haha ! no bad dreams for me tonite ...

ha , dec le ... 4 mor days for sch ... sian ! i am tired of going back , haha , same as aileen ba ... but mayb go back see friends not bad la ... but i am reali tired of studyin le , even though i am still interested in interior design ... haiz ... i think tis year reali bad for us ... poor grades (me included) , parents naggin all gettin worse , relationship , some personal stuff , all unhappy one ... when will we have a happy endin for everyone ... let's jus hope tat 2005 will b happy ba ... come to think of happy year , i think 2001 is the most happy for me ba ... even though it did happen some unhappy things , but u noe , everyone was there ... now , we wan to b there oso hard , cos different sch le ... den holiday oso very messy , some have practice , some cant get out often like me , some got other reasons ... haiz ... yday heard frm iris some bad news ... which i oso learn frm the blog too ... jus wanna say , do cheer up girl ... mayb jus try to look on the bright side , even though it seem so dim ... anythin we r jus a call away ... i noe u muz b very tired le , so take a gd rest n start everythin again ... sounds tough but we r all behind to support ok ... remember last time when u read my blog n u msg me tell me to cheer up ... n write a joke abt jay ... i reali apperciate it u noe ... even though some ppl help me to think of the ans ... haha ... wan to msg u , but thinkin tat msgin u might give u some stress , so i type it here ... when u read it , hope can see a slight smile frm u , a big wide one will b even better ... ^__^ ... hee ... now , everyone got their own prob ... sometimes i dunno how to help even , think i somehow haven seen them for months like tat ... i am trap at hm ... but today going out with jun to buy some things n mayb go repair my bracelet ... den go return taka pass n i will have nothin to do with them anymor ... haha ... anw , jus wanna tell all my friends somethin ... mayb type one b one better ... first ris , think u muz have plan ur 2005 le , n mayb still scared wat is ahead , but dun worry k ... we will b there ... n let's chat phone again soon ... remember we always have adventure going out after our tt ... hee , miss those times ... jing , noe u muz b feelin very down since tat day , but wan u to noe tat we r all here ... u wan to cry or wat we will lend u a shoulder ... i noe forgettin is hard , cos i got try to forget someone too , but jia you ok ... jun , i dunno how's u n ur dad , mayb going out today den i will noe le , but jus wanna say if anythin happen , i will always b there de , like u always b there for me like tat ... i always remember u as a happy go lucky person when i first met u ... hee ... qi , miss those days when we workin , it's tat time when i noe u better n mor close with u ... even though we seldom tok on phone , but jus wan to say 'u can call me oso de' ... haha ! noe u r sad with some things oso , but cheer up k ... tok , think mayb u r facing some family prob again , n we no longer can sit beside each other n chat le , but when we meet n u feel like telllin someone ur prob , we will all b there de ... jus pick n choose ... hee ! nes , though now i still not very very close with u , so i dunno wat's happenin to u ... but jus in case anythin happen , we r here ok ... yixin , dun even noe u noe tis blog ma , but den wan to wish u havin gd grades ok ... u always seem the toughest among us , i admire tat ... but dun think things to urself if u have prob ok ... xinyi , oso dunno u noe tis blog ma , but wan to say i miss those times in sec 2 ... so cute n fun ... haven seen u for quite long le , how r u anw ... hope u r doing real fine ok ... miss ya ... bohui , jie jie ... do u miss playin tt in sec sch ... i miss a little bit ... the part when i play with u all , n we both always tryin to break our record ... got anythin or prob , muz tell us k ... n lastly grace ... think i have write some things for u le , but still wan to say cheer up ... ganbatte ... n through art , i finally get to noe u better , n now like a best friend to me le ... though we r both quite lame in differnet way , but den it's fun , isn't it ... chyi yeu ah ... i dun wan to say la ... i think she muz b enjoyin herself with kids n i here wan to wish her well oso lor ...

yday go JB see him le ... somemor in the bus got sometime sit beside me ... den he ask me i holiday liao rite ... but it's not like last time le , we cant keep our conversation long ... jus short n simple , straight to the pt ... everytime i see him n her , heart break ... but not as serious as him hurtin me ... i miss those times too ... i remember when we see each other , we always smile with each other one ... n is like he dun smile to alot of ppl ... but now everythin change le ... he got her , i got him le ... but my tat him dunno can last how long ... even can last long , den wat abt my mum ... always thinkin of tis prob ... k la , i have to go vacuum floor , den go bathe n go out with jun le ...