Thursday, December 30, 2004Y
slackin the whole day ...
haha ... been watchin tv all day today ... cos no sch for me on thurs ... back to read n update my tis blog ... like so long never step in here le ... haha ... i wonder how's everyone ... oh , qi , ris n grace watch kong fu hustle le ... so gd la , i haven watch ... den who pei wo go watch ... jun got to watch with her family ... haiz ... y they never ask me ... oh anw , the thing i am worryin abt is kinda not happenin ... haha ... mayb jun will understand wat i mean here , n mayb not ... these few days , never reali got any chance to see him ... cos he is jus so busy ... but yday got tok phone for a while , but honest speakin , it's kinda boring ... he say he too tired to tok , den even when i say joke , he say he too tired to laugh ... so it makes the whole conversion so pathetic ... n once again , the emtional me cry again ... mayb it's reali time to end everythin ... i dun like to live a double life ... i dun wan to b like spiderman , tore apart ... it reali hurts ok ... 'have u ever put urself into my shoes ?' is like i reali feel like i am the one always givin , n he's the one takin ... ha la ... y muz it b like tat ... even though i once told the others tat i will like to find someone i like mor than he like me , but is not to tis extreme ok ... suddenly feel like i wan to continue is jus becos i wan to break his record of his 10 months ... haha , am i crazy ... how can i treat tis kind of thing tis way ... saw him yday at taka when takin the escalator ... den finally i can show kai xin how he look like ... stand at B1 n look at the taka square there ... kai xin say he look so si wen ... haha ... got meh ... den say we reali look very pei ... she keep on sayin hen pei ni leh ... ah la ... pei so wat ... den stead for 3 months le , haven even receive any gifts ... i am not greedy lor ... he wan to give me a sweet i oso very happy de lor ... is like last time MH give me a chocolate , i alreadi like fly to the sky ... ya , speakin of him , he msh me on mon ... was so shock lor ... make me think of him ... den on mon , went causeway with jun a while , sit down at long john n tok ... talk abt alot of stuff ... cos she reject someone she used to like b4 , but like i say , is b4 ... as long as she is happy can liao ... 'anw , do u noe tat u r the first one tat when i first saw u , u give me a very different feelin ... a feelin to make me wan to noe u mor ...' haha ... i think when qi read tis , she will feel oh my gosh ... haha ... k la ... never reply his sms in the mornin ... oso cant meet him le, cos my dad is back ... like tat mayb oso better ... once again , feel so alone yday nite ... once again , hate myself last nite ... once again , i dunno wat to do reali last nite ... anw ... watch alot of movie yday n today ... charlie's angels 2 is not bad , but somehow i prefer the first one ... but is a kick ass movie ... watch bring it on , watch it again actually , but still so nice , kristen dunst so young ... n the guy is cute ... how to deal , a show by mandy moore ... it's kinda sad at the beginnin , a bit boring in the middle , n ok at the nite ... conclusion , it's ok onli ... haha ... wan to watch the luke wilson show ... he so cute too lor ... got the mature cute look ... haha ... ok la , end here ... wan to watch those movie again with my sis (cousin) ...
5:43 PM
