Saturday, December 11, 2004Y
somewhere ...
somewhere ... i muz find somewhere to bring out the real me ... haiz ... but where ... so sian , yday tok phone halfway with ris , den mum wake up n look at me ... later still go my room check ... somemor , when i go hm yday , when i tok to her , she give me tat kind of face n din tok to me ... haiz ... nvm , i feel numb le ...
AH ! i cant add any mor modules , cos i go too late le ... all space full ... y i so stupid ... shuld have ask kai xin to help me do on thurs ... n they all got wat they wan n onli me still pathetic 4 modules ... think i will reali die the next semester ... i will b so busy n stress out ... yday on the bus i almost cry out , cos the music i am listenin (the elva song) n when i think of my modules ... nvm , muz b brave ... think positive ...so i can concentrate on my IAD project 1 now ... muz score at least a B for it ... no D for me tis time ... cos i got so much time to concentrate on tis 4 modules ... all the best for me ... i wish i can do it one ...
yday went out meet him ... go yishun meet him , cos the stupid him dun wan to come tampines pick me ... haha ! no la ... i still glad tat he rush back frm KL jus to meet me ... hee ! feel so xin fu to b with him ... even though like wat jun say , he sometimes dun express his feelin well , but den haiz ... relationship muz have trust rite ... so i have n need to trust him ... he promise he wun make me cry again ... ("v") haha ! does tis look like a heart ? yday actually we did nothin much la ... i jus eat my dinner inside his car , den he drive to my near my hm there , den we jus stay in his car cuddling lor ... cos yday i was too tired ... he oso ... we both almost jus slp inside the car lor ... quite sweet la ... n he oso cant dun wish to let me go hm ... she bu de ... haha ! i oso she bu de ma ... go hm muz face my mum ... but i tell him we still can meet next time one ma ... haha ... he jus msg me to tell me he had a sweet dream last nite ... so opp of me ... i had bad dream ... dream of my mum again ... dream until i cry again ... can reali feel the heart pain tat kind ... i wish we can last forever ... yday buy cleo mag , got one article is say how far will u go for love ... n they got tok abt the religion one ... n oso got one person like abt the same case as me ... her parents force them to break up ... but the guy still like her alot ... but den the advisor say is better to jus quickly break as not to let ur heart break further mor ... haiz ... shuld i do tat too ... cant bring myself to say lor ... ah la ... fan ... nvm ... take one step at a time ... k la ... i need to go bath le ... later going botanic with kai xin ... for the stupid IAD project 1 ...
12:39 PM
