Wednesday, December 15, 2004Y
story of my hp ...
haiz ... my hp is spoil !!! haven go service yet , but can still say is spoilt ... feel like crying ... it drop inside the stupid toilet bowl ... wa , first time in my life ... i remember i got drop things inside toilet bowl b4 , but is somethin not tat impt ... wa la , how can my jacket treat me tis way ... somemor is new phone , onli 2 months onli ... haiz ... so now got to use my old phone , no colour n somemor the ring tone monotone ... pathetic rite ... haiz ... hope it can b repair , with no info gone ... den tat will b the best ...
today , jun , ris n qi come to my sch to see see ... haha ... n guess wat ... i still dunno where the sports hall until today ... too bad they cant experience the feelin of rottin in the studio ... went to watch kobe n delvin play pool in the mornin , at first wan to go sing k box with kai xin one , but den she say other say ba ... oso , i have to go with jun they all one day ... went to see my converse shoes today ... think i will buy next week ... feel so tired even since started sch ... haiz ... y ahven he call ... wonder he receive my reply in the noon ma ... cos no , he might think tat my phone is still out of reach ... feel like callin him to see he still in singapore ma ... but scared myself got hurt ... cos on mon , after i finish talkin phone with him , i dunno y ... there is a sudden heart pain ... is like even though we continue talkin like b4 , but i dun feel there is any connection like tat ... mayb i am reali thinkin too much ... plus the stress tat my mum is givin me these few days , i reali breakdown cryin tat nite ... cry until headache tat kind ... long time never cry like tat le ... cry until when i wake up , i feel headache n oso my eyes 'zhong' ... den got the feelin of not going sch ... is like whole person feel so numb , heart alreadi die like tat ... tat nite , i dun wish to have it anymor ... i think is enough for me ... one mor breakdown n tat will b the end for me ... sometimes , i wonder will i cry until there is no tears left ... haha ... stupid thinkin rite ... but nvm ... at least i am thinkin somethin ... he promise he will call or msg everyday after his work one , y still nothin frm him ... somemor he work mornin today ... anw , mor n mor ppl is leavin jun's club ... hope everyone leave n i never go back ... actually , wat bernard say to me oso somehow make some sense , mayb i shuld reali give some tot for it ... but i am tired of thinkin , cos once think , fan again ... haiz ... when will all these end ... i hope is very soon ... hao la ... think i better quickly use finish com cos my cousin wan to use ... anw , tomoro no sch , got to bring my hp for service ... haiz again ...
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