sch reopenin ...
sch reopen le ... going to b busy again ... i think the P2 can kill me alreadi ... haiz ... let's jus tok abt the first few days of my life , a small recap ...
monday : went to beach with ris , jing , jun n grace ... was fun ... they all say my perm hair look cute ... haha , i myself think is a little auntie leh ... den i went to sun tan , surprisingly , i din have any rashes at all ... but i got quite a bad sun burn ... now skin start peelin off ... went to see the stupid musical fountian ... it was so bad now la ... had real fun , of cos , with my angels ma ...
tuesday : nothin much actually ... mornin listen to tok , den later skip lesson ... wahaha , first day alreadi skip lesson ... went to studio slack ... the guys r shock with my hair ... think most of them prefer me with straight hair ...
wednesday : most havoc day shuld say ... mornin meet da jie to watch hse of wax ... i like the movie alot , even though is so gross ... my heart is racin with the movie ... chad michael murray is so handsome , now i noe y he look so familiar , cos he's the male lead in cinderalla story ... haha , tat movie i oso watch with da jie ... i think the girl very pretty too ... she is called elisha wat ... i think she n tat chad very pei , but i think the chad got girlfriend le , frm one hill tree one i think ... i close my eyes alot when the gross part come , i din reali see the cuttin finger n forcin the mouth to open one ... den later went back to sch for lesson , ended quite fast , went to wait for da jie oso for kk ... haha , so me n kai xin go n confront kk n he admit he's the actor la ... wahaha ... but i can still feel tat kk care alot abt me n kai xin , mayb we r his first batch of student , n we r so called the closest to him ... after we confront him , he still ask us wat we study tis time ... n is like he jus ask we two onli lor ... so touched ... den later , iris , mi , da jie , aileen n kai xin all went down to orchard ... xin went to meet hao n the 4 of us jus do our shoppin ... haha ... bought a black skirt which is damn cheap la ... frm far east ... i long time never buy cheap clothes le ... haha ...
thursday : went for lesson in the mornin , but skip the afternoon lesson ... haha , i skip lesson again ... first week onli ... i think i so bad girl la ... went to swensen with kai xin to chat ... cos i was feelin sad tat time ... later da jie n wan ling come n meet us , after a while , we went to mac to eat ... after tat , wan ling n kai xin go hm n i continue shop with da jie ... at first got meet him one , but wed nite he tell me dun meet le ...
friday : nothin much happen i think ... the mornin lesson is boring , tat's wat i can say ...
saturday : went to sch in noon with kai xin to discuss abt our P2 ... borrow alot of books for reference ... haha ... we decide to design a hotel room ... i think i will design a hotel room for couples ... mayb la , or i will design a cafe in hotel tat kind , but cafe again i will b a little sian ... later went to meet jun to buy his present , in the end bought a tie ... n a cake ... go find him when he's workin , cos he jus nice msg me too ... but din tok much , cos he was like damn busy ... after tat went to shop a little while n went hm ... was so tired now ... a little headache ... think going to end soon ...
anw , hopin to get some comment ... do u guys think i shuld get a iPod mini or a movo creative mp3 (i wan the 5GB one , cos onli tat can choose colour) ... the creative one i check le , tat one for FM radio ... but the iPod mini i think dun have ... but i like the colour of iPod mini n the design ... but today i ask teh price , the iPod mini is slightly cheaper than tat one ... i think is becos of the storage space , but tat iPod oso got 4 GB which is alot lor , can store 1000 songs ... muz consider now ... goin to save money for it ... feel free to give comment ... n i dun reali liek zen creative even though is very high tech ... cos i think is too high tech until i dun reali like ... ya , oso the iPod mini i think mor easy to connect to the com ... i dunno abt the creative one ... all is abt 300 plus now ... hope i can get it by end of jun , cos i reali cant stand my discman le , somethin wrong with the batt ... tomoro meetin him ... hope it will turn out good ... nite ...
12:31 AM
new hairstyle ...
great ... i go perm my hair ... actually wan to go reborn or relaxin one , but dunno y , in the end i saw a book , den i like tat hairstyle , so the person say muz spa perm , den after a while it will look like tat ... cos my hair now is so differ frm the hair i wan , cos mine is still very curly while tat hairstyle is actually quite straight , with very light curl ... tomoro going beach , iris they all will see my hair ... at first i not used to it one , but now ok le ... jus now went to orchard alone to get my beach shorts ... tat short is reali quite short , can see the fat leg ... haiz ... later go do some leg exercise ... k la , got to get out here first ...
9:07 PM
my timetable ...
Day Start Finish Subject Lecturer Group
Mon 9:00 13:00 IADP2 Aida Binte Khalid(67805705) T01
Tue 12:00 15:00 EnTec Rosli Bin Melan(67805714) T02
Wed 15:00 18:00 DSS&T Aida Binte Khalid(67805705) T01
Thu 9:00 12:00 IADP2 Aida Binte Khalid(67805705) T01
Thu 15:00 18:00 ExStu Rosli Bin Melan(67805714) T01
Fri 9:00 12:00 P&FDr Loh Hwee Chong, Tommy(67805725) T03
Fri 15:00 18:00 PComD Bina Bhattacharyya(67805704) T04
tis is my timetable for tis sem ... sad sad ... wed i start sch late ... so end sch late ... so tat means i cant have my wed shoppin trip with jun le ... den monday i leave sch the earliest ... sob ... i somehow hate my wed timetable ... it starts so late la ... sian ... haiz ... waste my shoppin day ... i think my shoppin day will b during monday ... but i heard monday jun starts sch late ... haiz haiz ...
4:59 PM
jolin's songs ...
好想你
我喜欢你紧握我的手 一股安全的暖流 渗透到胸口
我喜欢你叫我的语气 理直气壮的粗鲁 却有私密的亲昵
好想你 不停止 好想你 我爱你 写在手心 你笑容
你触碰 还是让我心动 好想你 不停止 好想你 我爱你
给我勇气 那包容 那悸动 都是我 珍藏的内容(被爱的光荣)
我喜欢你吻我的时候 看你专注的低头 像永远不够
我喜欢你叫我的名字 一副若无其事的 又像公开的秘密
好几次我怕会来不及 还没抱够你 不管我是你几分之几
我只要爱你
tis song is damn sweet la ... haha ... like the lyrics alot , wonderin how it sound like ...
天空
听着自己的心跳 没有规则的跳跃
我安静的在思考 并不想被谁打扰
我们曾紧紧拥抱 却又轻易地放掉
这种感觉很微妙 该怎么说才好
时间分割成对角 停止你对我的好 瓦解我们的依靠
在你离开之后的天空 我像风筝寻一个梦 雨后的天空
是否有放晴后的面容 我静静的望着天空
试着寻找失落的感动 只能用笑容
期待着雨过天晴的彩虹
heard tat tis song is for jay ... rumour la ... but it's reali very sad ...
酸甜
雨后的长街 相同的地点 玻璃窗面前 从我今天的脸
你不给诺言 也不说抱歉 预知的风险 我却陷在那里面
那一天 古着指尖 不问甚么 我就相信 我们会永远
那一年 没有宣言 但抱着你 我曾拥抱 全世界 哭过了
笑过了的瞬间 爱只是 暂借来 的时间 坚持过 谅解过
却瓦解 混合着心浚点点 还有阳光的温暖 爱一个人酸甜
等待久了点 来不及实现 失守的从前 所有情节都改编
你拥的肩 我学会拒绝 当昨天的泪 蒸发成我的蓝天
哭过了 笑过了 的瞬间 爱只是 暂借来 的时间 坚持过
谅解过 却瓦解 我们都 不能 幸免 各有各新的地点
can say tis is how i describe love ... bitter sweet ... haiz ...
反覆记号
爱情微笑着开始是美好 拥抱了之后是依靠
触摸幸福坦诚勇敢 我们都在无限的符号里飘
热烈了以后却逃掉 坚持弃权走掉 留下蹦紧的笑
短暂而跳跃 我们习惯安静的放掉 也许我们都在寻找
属于爱情透明的句号 以为找到我们之间 却不是等号
也许我们都在寻找 属于眼泪的休止符号
我们却像平行的双巷道 只剩下各自单向的轨道
(逃离分开的惊叹号) 这样的反复记号
会在那一刻放掉 陷在里面 什么也无法抛掉 抛掉
i find tis lyric alot of meanin ...
think tis will do , or i will jus put every song lyrics ... haha ...
1:14 PM
msg to angels ...
haha , finally i am back again ... 3 days of roadshow work can give me hell ... so tiring , work as taka promoter oso never so tired despite long workin time ... think is all the runnin ard , describin the goody bags tat cause me to b so so tired ... i think each day we at least have to repeat the whole thing near 200 times , with some wan , n some dun wan ... esp hate the one dun wan ones , is like u waste ur saliva tokin to them n in the end they say nope ... haiz ... yday was the last day , n me n hun earn the most out of the whole group ... cos yday was reali a huge success for us , i cant believe it myself too ... we actually got 280 , n somemor we went to rest early , i wonder if we reali stop work at 3 , mayb we can get 10 mor ppl ... cannis later give the whole group a treat , n the most funny is onli me n jun sit with all teh so called seniors , den the other rest of the promoters sit at the other far end ... so in the end we tok to the 'seniors' mor ... was funny la ... n they say me n jun is the thinnest among them but we ate the most ... wahaha ... is it a praise or wat ... den later me n jun went down to bugis cos i wan to serach for my bag , n i got one at tien ... actually i saw the bag quite long ago n i like it alot , but tat time jus holiday , so no money , n tat is designer bag , so comfirm very x , so i jus put it as a desired item ... but when yday we earn so much incentive , i start to hack care abt the pricin n went back to see still got anot ... n ya , they have 2 mor colours left ... too bad they have no mor green one , cos last time i think green is the best among the 6 colours ... so onli pink n blue left ... take some time to decide cos both look not bad , different kind of nice ... so in the end i ask the promoter at there n she say pink look nicer on me , oso tat blue is not tat nice cos it kind of clash with the ribbon colour ... speakin of the ribbon , ris n qi say look like minnie mouse ribbon , haiz ... so end up i oso decide to buy pink ... they had discount n the funny thing is they put the wrong price on the price tag , so tat time i was wonderin to buy anot , cos there write 59.90 ... i was thinkin tis is reali x la , but later the girl told me is 49.90 , n they got another 10% discount , so i think the price still ok la (even though i was still hopin it will b cheaper) , but tis is a designer bag , so ok lor ... onli 1 to 2 pieces for each colour in whole singapore , so shuld b rare la ... but tis bag seem 'fragile' , cannot like any pen draw on it or else my heart reali very pain ... cos tat type of material dun think can reali wash , even can wash , pen stain cannot b washed away ... den later , i was hopin to find my mini skirt , but never find one i like ... jun bought a belt n later we went to a new shop which i noe frm seventeen , the whole shop send mickey mouse things , all the clothes ... i found a skirt , but when i try , it look so a-line , so i dun like it ... den jun was decidin to buy a mickey mouse bag , look cute n nice ... but i reali wonder can she go sch with tat bag ... so later , we went down to cck n meet the angels for dinner ... almost all ppl came xcept nes n chyi yeu ... chyi yeu is dun need to say one la , she is so busy i think , with 3 jobs ... think she reali earn alot ... den we jus sit n chat , oso we took a neo print , was so squeezy la , n i promoted to the back le ... wahaha ... k la ... tis is how i spent my yday ... sob , no mor shoppin trip with iris tis fri ... wonder is anyone alse free tis fri ... ok , the rest is for individuals le ...
jun : haha , i read ur blog , em ... i admit i was a bit pissed off at tat time la , cos we r so busy n yet u keep on talkin to the phone , n it's not like once , i think got 3 times like tat ba , n if u never tok on phone u will keep on msgin ... n i had to do the keep on replenishin bags which is runnin ard cum promoting ... but it's ok now la , i oso now how we like to tok on phone so much ... mayb i was havin pms too , so the frustration mor hard to control ... but hey , like u say on ur blog , we reali did very well on the last day , i was very impressed by we both ... mayb all thanks to tat guy who give us tat advice ... we r still the best partners rite , n best shoppin partners too ... but haha , next time when u work elsewhere , try to control ur phone call la , mayb roahshow is not tat strict onli ... u work elsewhere , let the boss see , u sure get fired one ... so i muz train u now , mayb tis is ur first offical job , so we tend to lack abt it ... n haha , speakin teh truth la , i think our friendship now become a little stranger , i dunno how to describe but i can jus feel tat way la ... or am i jus the one feelin tis way ...
ris : aiyo , read ur blog , ah la , mum r like , they never stop their naggin mayb till we r married n get out of the hse ... or they will stop when they r too old to nag anymor ... haha , but jus dun think too much ... i noe sometimes we all dun wan to b late , but jus dunno y we will b late , the best example is jun ... haha ... dun kill me ... jus look on the bright side ok ... mayb ur mum jus worried , but she show it in the way tat is jus too harsh ... so jus dun care too much , jus try ur best not to b late agin ... prove it to her ... n ya , mayb i am too picky or i reali can somehow feel it ... em , i can see u feel sad when qi they all tokin abt graduation tis year ... i noe it will b hard for u when they leave , but u noe , mayb u reali r alone in sch , but jus put us all into ur heart n u wun feel tat alone anymor ... jus give us a call anytime ... like qi they all , they oso have 3 months like tat b4 they start another new sch , so during tat time , they will b free too ... when mayb they start sch , we poly r havin holiday le , so become us pei u , n soon , the one year will b gone ... so , dun think too much ok ...
kai xin : today timetable comin out , i am damn excited ... still have to wait till 3 ... i hope we can at least b in the same class for a core subject ... hee ... i am so used to have u in my class la ... these few days never heard frm u , mayb is my fault too , never call or sms u ... u ask me out on monday , but once again , i cant go , cos i alreadi promise my sec sch friends i going beach with them ... haiz haiz ... hope u wun blame me ... so how's u n ... haha , k la ... sch reopenin soon ... but muz see the timetable first , deni will say i qi dai anot ... haha ... miss u all too ...
em , think i stop here first , later will come back again to post my time table here for u all to see ... den sure all the complainin will start again ... haha ...
12:18 PM
workin again ...
i am workin again for 3 days ... is a roadshow work ... but i have to wear the ugly tshirt ... so awful ... haiz , hope no friend will go there ... ya , n i watch matrix revolution finally ... the endin kinda bad ... like u dunno wat's the real endin , u dunno wat happen to neo ... i wish there is jus one matrix , the first one , the second n third jus make things confusin ... speakin of matrix , i will think of tok ... anw , can jun pls give me tok's blog add ... i ask for it very long le ... i noe it's changed ... or if tok see tis , u can jus type in the taggie or anw ... hee ... k la , no mood to type ... i wan to read some mag , but the newest cleo i abt to finish readin le ... now have to wait for seventeen ... haiz , my comic oso haven out i think ... muz go check one day ... k la , no mood to write mor ... jus some update ... openin sch in a week time ... time flies , last time still tot got 1 month , now 1 week left le ... sob sob ... but tp is still the best ...
9:13 PM
shoppin princess ...
haha , i think i shuld call myself a shoppin princess ... cos i am always buyin things , like wat iris says ... went out one day with jun for a while to buy stuffs for my poly life ... haha , i finally bought my pumps ... is frm x:odus ... jun bought one too ... costs us a bomb , n i have to help jun pay cos is her workin money frm tat survey ... anw , when is tat mediacorp givin mi my money , till now i still haven get my pay ... i am goin broke soon ... somehow , now i jus wish i will see yixin n get some money back frm her ... at least tat money can last me some days ... ok , back to shoppin , ya , i got a red sweet pumps , made of pig's skin ... jun got a brown pumps , different design but oso made frm zhu pi ... haha ... i think we jus kill some pigs ... oops ... my design got 6 colours n her design got 3 colours ... look somehow a little bit the same but both r nice la ... i bought mine at heeren n hers got to go all the way down to PS to get in cos heeren dun have her size le ... after i bought my shoe , when to walk walk at heeren , n i bought a bra at the fling shop , tat shop where the entrance writes 'nude girls inside' ... is black checker , so i consider it as my black bra , hee ... it was quite cute , but it does cost a little bomb ... is jus a little less than 40 bucks , n jun tell me her friend vanessa went to tat shop n buy 4 at one go ... omg , so envy , wahaha ... but she goes with her mum la , but i go with my mum she oso wun buy , she will jus keep on sayin i got alot ... i feel like tellin my mum oh pls , i do got alot , but not all i can wear now , some the size alreadi a bit too small for me ... but she jus wun listen , say one day she bring me to bangkok n buy ... say very cheap there ... haha , when will it be ? after gottin tat bra , we continue to walk a while den we go straight to PS le , but before tat , i went to OG a while to get my nail stickers ... so upon reachin PS , we go n find her shoes , got her size den we bought it ... their plastic bag is a bit horrible la , dun suit their shop image ... they shuld have bags like gripz , looks like high class like tat ... their shoe is all so x n they have tis kind of plastic bag a bit off ah ... den we went to their food court n eat n after tat went hm le ... cos i dun wan to go hm late n i was reali tired after jus shoppin for a while ... we were hm reali reali early la , reach hm at 8 ... first time in my life now ... haha ... next shoppin trip most likely will b with iris to get beach wear n i wan get my mini skirts ... feel like buyin a black skirt ...
yday went out with him , was totally horrible ... the startin was not gd at all le ... mornin he msg n say he very very tired , say can cancel meet me ma ... of cos , i was a little pissed off , cos tis is not the first time le , n we alreadi have not meet for like 2 weeks n he still dun wan to meet ... den nvm , he say meet after i reply , den i tell him dun need to force himself if he is too tired , den he say he alreadi wake up so nvm la ... was a little mor glad tat he tries to put in effort ... but i jus cant get back the happy mood at tat time ... so when i see him , he say i givin him tat sian sian look again ... say like tat he might as well dun meet me ... fine , later we went to watch movie ... watch the chucky movie , was damn boring actually , i reali almost fall aslp ... den later we jus park at one carpark n guess wat , he jus took out his car mag n read n read ... he tell me to read with him too , but cars , i read a while oso dunno wat they talkin like tat ... so at first nvm , i jus put my head on his shoulder when he reads ... den after tat , we got talk talk n hug hug , but is jus after a while , he took out tat mag to read again ... i tot he jus finish readin the whole thing den he took out ot flip back again , tis time totally ignorin me like tat ... so i have to wind down the window n jus look at scenery ... he din even say anythin ... was reali feelin sad tat time ... he din even look at me la ... so on the way when he is drivin back to singapore , i was reali damn quiet , those who noe me will noe if i too quiet surely somethin is wrong ... so he was like tryin to talk to me but all i give back was some one word ans ... he ask me y i so quiet , oh my , he still dare to ask me y i so quiet ... nvm , i jus say i got nothin to say ... so the whole one hr , i was reali very very quiet ... n the whole car is onli fulled with music ... at the end he tell me to say somethin , i say wat can i say , den he say r we to the stage tat we cannot find any topics to say ... the truth is we r not , but i jus dun have the strength to talk tat time , i was feelin emotionally tired ... got one part he was pissed of by mi got a i got alot of msg comin in , den he suddenly jus very fierce tell me 'dun need to put ur hp in the bag la since u got so many msgs' ... once again , i am pissed ... nvm ... den is when eatin time it got a little better , i start to at least talk a little ... den later we jus park at the car park again n he ask me wat happen jus now lor ... got better in end cos i voice out my tots , but actually not reali pleased how he deal with it ... i dun wan to mention here how he deal with it , but he jus din say any sorry ... n he think tat he can deal prob with tat , deni afraid he is wrong , tis time i ok , cos mayb is i goin to have pms too , so mor emotional , but still got next time , den i think i will jus request to go hm ... on the whole , yday date was quite bad ... shuld have listen to the coin n stay at hm ...
n kai xin , if u r readin tis , i am sorry i din call back when u gave me a miss call on tues ... i was in the silent mood , so i din heard the phone , den i forget to call back u when i got hm ... den till now i still haven call u ... i somehow noe y u call tat day , i think u wan me to wish bernard myself on the phone ... i am jus so sorry ...
12:31 PM
movie critics ...
haha , no la , i manage to rent 3 dvds hm n now jus feel a litte sian , so write soem things abt wat i saw these last few days ... first , i go rent xXx 1 ... haha , i prefer vin diseal (is his name spell like tat ?) ... he's cute in some sense ... mayb after the pacifier oso ... haha ... not bad , all the fast action again ... cant reali comment much , but it's a nice action show ... second , went to rent stuck on u ... is but the story of conjoined twins ... starrin matt damon n tat hitch girl ... but they r not the couple in the story ... it's funny , cute n touchin ... i like the teddy bear part ... today , i watched white chicks ... haha , tis show is reali funny ... funny is the onli word ... i laugh throughout the whole show , which is gd , cos i need tat ... my finger is so itch now ... but there is one digustin part , i cant believe girls can actually b so horny ... it's a part when 3 girls went to the 2 girls (which is the black bros) room sat nite for their so called party ... they played with hair all these ... nvm , it's later they took out somethin , which i think is a sex toy tat look like a dick n ask 1 of the 2 girls to perform or demonstrate in front of them ... totally gross ... but of cos , they cant do tat so they manage to get over with it by usin some funny method of without puttin it to the mouth or the vagina ... nut it's jus so er xin to noe tat they is girls actually wan to see other usin sex toys ... oh my ... n speakin of tis , i jus read newspaper abt serial sex , which is now a so call teen drugs ... they mention now got alot of singapore teens havin sex at young age n somemor with alot of partners ... now it's not strange to hear someone losin their virgin at age of 14 ... n they say need mor sex education , as mor n mor ppl go for one nite stand n sexual disease is spreadin ... em , i personally dun agree to one nite stand or havin lots of sexual partners too , is like u will dun even remember who u have did with ... got 1 girl , who is 18 like us , had alreadi done with 19 men n mostly is one nite stand ... haha , it's sound like it's ill treatin urself la even though u get the pleasure , worst still , most of the men she bed with is 20s to 30s ... n all r like strangers ... last time , i am those who dun agree to premarital sex , but now , mayb i read too much mag or see too much tv or wat , i think is ok to have if u reali trust tat person n love tat person ... n of cos u mus noe tat he loves u too n wun run away jus after gettin ... becos i read frm mag , once u have a serious relationship , havin sex is to make u both mor comfortable with each other , u have to b comfortable with each other's bodies in order to have a mor deeper realtionship liek marriage ... but haha , dun b mistaken , i am not tellin anymor to have sex before marriage , cos i think it's still better to save for ur husband so tat u can give tat special one to him ... but surely no one nite stand or wat so ever , tis will make me feel eei ... we r not americans ... haha ... i am jus a mor open minded person , so dun need to feel guilty if u r not a wat anymor ... if u think u give it to someone u love , den it's ok ... haha , or man , suddenly i am discussin tis topic ... wahaha ... k i shall stop ... goin to watch zhen qing soon ...
4:11 PM
utterly disappointed ...
haiz ... never tot i will feel tis thing abt u again , or mayb i shuld say i tot i will never brought tis issue back again but it seems like u have too little time for me ... shuld a couple b like tat ... i alreadi 1 week plus never go out with u n u dun seem like to care ... these few days , when u call , u jus hurried the conversation off by tellin me u will msg me after going hm , ok , tat's fine ... but after u reach hm , u will jus msg me u got hm n tat's it ... i reply , u never reply back ... it actually has been like tat since the past few days ... nvm , wat upset me the most is yday ... once again , u msg me tat u got hm , fine , gd ... den u say u work mornin , so wan meet in the evenin ma , cos i take the first move to tell u tat i haven seen u for quite long ... but in the msg u add , if cannot den meet next week la ... wat's with the 'la' word , is like u r tryin to sound as if u r being forced to meet me ... nvm , i forgo tis , mayb is his eng too lousy , so he does mean tat way ... but when i msg u tat i have to see first , cos i am feelin reali sick , like going to have fever ... n guess wat , u din even reply anythin ... never say anythin , never tell me to take care , dun even seem like u care ... ok , nvm again , i can jus pretend u alreadi slp or wat so ever ... but today mornin , u din even msg me anythin ... u never ask how am i feelin le or wat ... i am crushed ok ... but no mor tears for u ... no mor ... i din cry or wat ... jus feel like everythin dun seems to b rite now ... mayb i am once thinkin too much again , but i jus cant help but have tis feelin ... ppl feel the most down when they r sick , n it's the time they need u to b there the most ... but u always din ... does one msg will kill off ur time n strength ... i reali dun understand ... to me , u r always not there when i need u the most ... i dunno y ... mayb u r reali busy , but i jus hope u can do much better than like tat ... thurs u say dun meet cos u wan to rest , ok , i very fine with tat , cos u r always like tat ... n i oso dun wan u to fall ill or wat ... but u add tat at midnite u r going to wake up n watch ur soccer ... so now even soccer mor impt than me ... i noe guys r soccer freak ... i dun blame them for havin tis kind of fetish ... dun even noe whether i use the correct term n spellin anot , but who cares ... everytime i think of u now , jus make me mor sick ... all u noe is jus tell me to see a doc ... ya , but sometimes , i think tis is mor of a heart sickness ... not tat a doc can cure ... is tat wat i get after all the trouble of makin fruit juice , buyin u a bear , buyin a advance bday card tat i saw on my way in suntec n everythin ... i wun b meetin u today , not becos i dun feel well , is becos i jus dun feel like facin u now ... ask u yday in teh msg , next week wat day u can meet , u oso din ans ... haha , u always jus tell me to adjust n fit into ur time , but have u done tat for me ... i noe i every tues n fri cant meet u cos of tat thing , i feel sorry for tat ok ... is like u say meet next week , u so sure i can meet u next week , i have my own activity too u noe ... i dun seem tat free as u think ... mayb i am free , cos is holiday now , but sometimes , i have to clear some day for my friends n family too ... i am not tat type of girl tat can go out everyday , or go back hm late ... so every week , i will left with mon , wed , thurs n sat ... i cant go out on all 4 days , i will sure get a scoldin , n tat does not mean u have off day on tat 4 day so i can pick n choose ... i promise mian cun i will go out with him next week to get gift for loh yun (n oops , n if ly is readin tis , i am sorry to spoil the fun n surprise tat he might wan to give ...), n i need one day for my shoppin for poly too , cos the next next week i might b workin ... den mayb the next sat i will meet iris too ... wat abt poly friends , wat if they ask me out too ... i so long never see them le , xcept for kx ... so , y dun we meet on the week of ur bday , which is the startin week of my sch ... i dun think u reali mind rite ... n everythin , i have to crack my brain to think of wat shuld i tell my parents when going out with u ... if i say go out with jun , they might wonder y everyday go out with her ... say poly friends , my mum will nag again abt the friends thing , say go to sch , seems a little off sometimes ... i hate lyin sometimes ok , dun make me feel gd ... i think u dun understand how i feel ... is tis so call a punishment for me , cos last week day i am upset abt another him ... n u r doin tis to me now ... mayb we shuld jus b friends at the beginnin ... or mayb i shuld tell myself to calm down now ... k , dun wish to say anymor , or else tears will fall , as it almost did jus now ... i will take care de ... n those readin , dun worry too much k , it will b fine after one or two days ...
3:39 PM
05-05-05 ...
haha , like wat iris say , is my fave num too ... so nice , all 5 today ... next year will b all 6 , a day after my bday ... speakin of bday , bernard's one is comin , but i cant go , cos is on a tues ... haiz ! these few days i am feelin heaty , keep on havin runnin nose ... haiz ... yday was fun , goin out with jun , never reali did anythin ... i manage to change my top , but the changed one is display one , n with alot of strings hangin ard ... like it's not made reali well like tat ... haiz , but wat can i do , left onli tat piece ... den we jus went to k box , regrettin of buyin the auntie annie drink ... haha ... den in k box , like wat have mention in her blog , the guy keep on lookin in , arg , feel like openin the door n say him ... or paste a large cardboard there ... haha ... the part where i enjoy most is the shou qian shou part , we try to imitate each of the ppl voice ... i laugh until i havin stomach cramp ... haha , k la , got to end here first , i wan watch my american idol results , who will b out today ... it all depends on ur voice , u vote , u decide ... haha ... does i sound like ryan seacrest ... hee ...
9:58 PM
bitter laugh ...
haha , y muz tis happen ... y ... somehow i tot tis will never b mentioned again , even if we tok , but y do u still remember ... it's alreadi like how many years ago since we used tis term ... y do u have to say tat word , tat short word ... mayb to others it seems like nothin , jus a simple word , but to me , i care alot ... when u mention tat word , i will start to think abt the past , the fun all these ... although i never forget it , but i jus dun wish to bring out my memories again , it's supposed to b buried ... buried deep down ... wat for dig it out , everythin still will remain the same now ... sometimes , i feel like askin , do u reali care , i mean abt me ... when we see each other , can we still tok like before ... i hope i never tok to u yday , but it cant b controlled rite ... mayb i am thinkin jus too much ... mayb i am the one tat wan to go back to the past ... mayb u jus suddenly remember n i tot u remember for ur life like tat ... mayb i am jus feelin silly n stupid ... i am happy for u now , think u r happy with ur who ... if i have one wish now , i wish i shuld never reali noe u ... mayb jus a common friend will do ... it kinda hurts , but not alot of cos ... jus a tiny little bit ... n the most sad thing is , i feel like tellin tis to someone , share with them , but kx dun even noe who tis person , den my other angels , some i dun wish to tell them ... cos i oso dunno how to explain ... as for jun , i always tell her abt tis , but tis time dunno y , liek dun wish to ma fan her like tat ... she seems busy even though she's havin her holiday ... n is like i am always the one complainin my prob to her , she's the one always listenin ... i feel bad , so tis time i jus keep it to myself (even ppl still will noe when they read tis) , but i dun wish to mention who , think alot of ppl can guess correct ba ... haiz ... but dear is cute today , ask me y i never reply him back , say i tryin to copy him , n now he will b the one tryin to get used to it ... haha ... k la , i shuld go back to my room , so hot in here ... go check whether my hp got dear bao ping an msg ma ... hee ... nite nite to me ... tomoro going out to change my top , pray hard they got , display i oso dun mind ... haha ...
12:00 AM
wat a day ...
hee , jus now went to meet kai xin , we went to design a shirt for bernard , for his bday ... it was quite cute ... with kx pullin his ear n me laughin away ... never include other ppl ... but let's jus hope it wun b too x ... hope is reali below 30 ... anw , was fun to go out with kx again ... cos we r both lame ppl ... haha ...
sat went out to meet jing , jun n ris ... was quite fun ... we went to watch infection ... tat movie is gross man ... not reali scary , but very er xing ... hate slimy green stuff now ... haha ... hate run down hospital too ... premonition is comin , i somehow noe wat is abt le ... is abt a father read a very mysterious newspaper n find out tat his daughter will die in a few days time ... sounds mor like a thriller to me ... haha ... infection is still ok , jus tat is not a normal jap horror movie like tat ... n is totally nothin to do with the poster ... went to pass him a bottle of fresh fruit juice n a bear tat he can hang in his car tat day too ... i mixed grape n strawberry together ... taste alrite ... not sour ... but wonder y he say taste like watermelon ... i think he reali quite shock i give him juice tat day ... say i silly somethin like tat ... tis is to tell him to eat mor fruits ... ok , enough of him ... den later after the movie , jing went to meet her dear , den we 3 continue shoppin ... ris bought some clothes ... i wan to change my mango shirt , but both shops in orchard all dun have the size le ... den they say cannot change at iseten outlets ... haiz ... den i have to wait for them to call n see whether raffles or suntec got ma ... reali hope got , i dun wan to waste 25 bucks ... pray hard hard ...
den yday , went out the whole day ... mornin is tat thing , afternoon went out with shu hui , den straight away meet my mum at causeway ... was shoppin at metro yday , cos they havin sales ... i bought 5 clothes ... but onli 2 i will wear to sch tat kind , or mayb 3 la ... the other 2 , i wear le look like workin like tat ... is for tat thing , so is ok lor ... serious ma ... i finally got my knee length skirt , somemor i dun need to pay ... bought frm the brand cooee ... quite nice ... can match with my mango top (sob sob again) ... or any plain top ... now wat i reali wan to buy is my pumps ... aimin for one le , but hope when i go buy , it will still b available ... or else i cry again ... haha ... k la , update tis again ... missin someone ...
9:37 PM
