bitter laugh ...
haha , y muz tis happen ... y ... somehow i tot tis will never b mentioned again , even if we tok , but y do u still remember ... it's alreadi like how many years ago since we used tis term ... y do u have to say tat word , tat short word ... mayb to others it seems like nothin , jus a simple word , but to me , i care alot ... when u mention tat word , i will start to think abt the past , the fun all these ... although i never forget it , but i jus dun wish to bring out my memories again , it's supposed to b buried ... buried deep down ... wat for dig it out , everythin still will remain the same now ... sometimes , i feel like askin , do u reali care , i mean abt me ... when we see each other , can we still tok like before ... i hope i never tok to u yday , but it cant b controlled rite ... mayb i am thinkin jus too much ... mayb i am the one tat wan to go back to the past ... mayb u jus suddenly remember n i tot u remember for ur life like tat ... mayb i am jus feelin silly n stupid ... i am happy for u now , think u r happy with ur who ... if i have one wish now , i wish i shuld never reali noe u ... mayb jus a common friend will do ... it kinda hurts , but not alot of cos ... jus a tiny little bit ... n the most sad thing is , i feel like tellin tis to someone , share with them , but kx dun even noe who tis person , den my other angels , some i dun wish to tell them ... cos i oso dunno how to explain ... as for jun , i always tell her abt tis , but tis time dunno y , liek dun wish to ma fan her like tat ... she seems busy even though she's havin her holiday ... n is like i am always the one complainin my prob to her , she's the one always listenin ... i feel bad , so tis time i jus keep it to myself (even ppl still will noe when they read tis) , but i dun wish to mention who , think alot of ppl can guess correct ba ... haiz ... but dear is cute today , ask me y i never reply him back , say i tryin to copy him , n now he will b the one tryin to get used to it ... haha ... k la , i shuld go back to my room , so hot in here ... go check whether my hp got dear bao ping an msg ma ... hee ... nite nite to me ... tomoro going out to change my top , pray hard they got , display i oso dun mind ... haha ...
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