Friday, October 31, 2008Y
my life is in a mess ...
haiz , is a love n hate thing abt blogging ... everytime when i blog , usually something bad or unhappy had happened ... but after blogging , i do feel much better ... ok , jus blog fast n go to slp ok ...
first up , my dad is not working anymor ... gosh , tat means tat i have the responsibility to take care of the family soon ... n i have to be careful of my spending now ... i noe tis is goin to happen one day , but not at tis age , at tis time ... i tot is like mayb another year mor , which i am mor prepared , find a better n stable job ... can u imagine , i wan to learn driving , i have to spend my own money to learn now ... ard 2 thousands of dollars ... my saving is half gone ... so my dad will b hm everyday n start callin me at 9 plus askin me where am i ... n now is hard to find part time job outside , with the economy like tat ... i am sad , lost n helpless suddenly ... n ya , when i need u to b there , call u wanting to tell u tis , u r jus busy with ur party ... sorry , i know u r going to read these , n words can b harsh , but i am jus sad ... i feel tat u r still a little boy , n i am growing mature faster than u , with all the resposibility all these ... r u someone tat reali can take care of me , or u r still busy enjoying ur life without the need to reali worry abt things ... mayb ya , guys at ur tis age is still enjoying ,, but hey , u got a gf tat she has to support her family at such a young age ... i guess u never tot of tat ... ok , if now u cant reali take care of me is ok , but u r not even there for me to pour tis worry n sorrow to u ... i noe tis is a big party , n u r going to enjoy it ... but did it ever come across to u tat sometimes there are something mor impt than partying ... i jus need 5 mins of your time , let me say it out to feel better , but i got nothing ... i reali feel like crying now .. u see , ur party is goin to end late tonite , so u probably not able to talk to me until tomoro ... den tml workin , not possible to reali say tis in office hr , imagine i have to bear until end of work den i can say ... is jus like tat night , when my mum tell me tat she feel like seperating with my dad , i call u n u said tat u r tired , u wan to go to slp , can i jus tell u tml ... n by the time i am tellin u , i cut short so many things , cos i already dun feel like sayin ... am i reali suitable for u , sometimes i will keep askin myself tis qn ... or do u need someone tat is like play play , can jus accompany u will do tat kind , those young girls tat dun wan to get tied down tat fast oso ... speaking of young girls , i dunno why u dunno i am angry ... i already said in my previous post tat i am jealous , den y r u still so insensitive ... dun tell me u can sense tat she's flirting with u , is damn obvious ... or r u like wat my friends say , u r jus enjoying it ... i dunno y u still can sms her few mor rounds when the first few reply r so obvious tat she is flirtious already ... frm tat time when she tell u her 'affair' thing n always complain to u , i already dun feel comfortable with it already ... y would a girl u know for 2 weeks only tell u all these stuff ... ok , mayb the complain still not so wat , but it seems like u noe quite a number of things abt her , like she's gonna quit soon or wat ... i dun wan to sound i am ridiculous or possesive , is jus tat i oso dunno y ... am i angry with u , or with her , or even myself ... i cried badly last nite , cant seem to go n slp ... mayb i shuld hug iris to cry together ...
ya , speaking of iris , she broke up with her bf ... or i shuld say tat JERK dump her heartlessly , coldly without feeling anything ... can u imagine when they r talkin abt tis topic n he can still even do his hw in the background ... see how sincere he is towards her ... omg , i reali feel like punching him or wat so ever , since i am feel very grumpy n all those stuff ... i even feel like reali killing him ... no kidding ... haha ... violent again ...
em , ok la , blogger seems to have a prob sudden , jus hope it can b posted up , dun waste my time typing ... anw , anything i say above , i am sorry if i am being too harsh , but u noe i am having pms soon ... so i am jus twice angry n down recently ... hopefully i will b fine over few days ... gd nite ... i muz reali save money now ... guess my 'IT' bag has to wait ...
11:54 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008Y
back again for so long ...
i am back ... haha , ever since so long , so many things have changed since my last blog ... wanting to type alot today , but kinda late now , dun wan to slp too late tonight ... many tots ... many feelings ... it's been so long since i blog or write an entry in my diary ... haha ... being forced to write by my dear dear ... but it's ok la , think having a space to write down my tots will b gd ... forgot my password for tis blog , took me so long to get it back ... k , i wan to surf the net mor a little den slp ...
lastly , i am jealous ...
11:16 PM
