Wednesday, November 26, 2008Y
somethin abt LIN XINYING ...
recently , i find out something 'amazing' abt her , jus wan to write it out ...
she is getting weaker ... both physically n emotionally ... she jus wonder how long can she hold on ... mayb one day she will collapse , one day she will jus be gone ...
she starts to have no faith in anythin n anyone ... whether the person is tellin the truth anot , she hates guessing , she hates suspecting , she hates being too sensitive ... end up , she hates herself mor n mor ...
she seems to have no target in life anymor ... nothin seems to reali motivate her ... the dream she wants seem so far n unrealistic ... she cant think , she cant work , she cant even speak up properly ... it's hidden , deep deep inside her fragile little heart tat she oso dun wan ppl to open it up ...
she is tired ... guess tis word jus keeps appearin in her mind everyday ... wat she wants is jus to slp , slp like a sleeping beauty ... but she dun need a prince to wake her up , cos she jus wan to continue slpin forever , eternally , always ...
she is feeling mor n mor lonely ... even when there are ppl surrounding here , she still feel the same way ... does it means tat she needs mor attention , or mayb even attention dun help ...
she getting cold hearted ... is not tat she dun care abt ppl , is jus tat she seems to lose interest in everythin , causing innocent ppl to get hurt too ... ppl tat cares abt her to feel bad too ... n she jus couldnt help it but to continue ...
can an angel come n pick her up ?
pick her to where she shuld belongs ...
8:40 PM
at work again ...
haha , very sian , so blog a while .. hee ... yday is me n dear dear 4 months ... went to eat marche ... yeah ! i miss my rosti so much ... too bad we are both poor , or else i would have eaten alot mor other things like their soup , the ice cream crepe (how come they dun have waffle one) and mayb one steak oso ... haha ... hungry leh ... reali hope tat dear dear can earn mor money and once a while treat me to eat or wat ... mayb becos my both previous relationships are all the guys do the paying ... esp my last one ... thinkin of tat , no wonder at tat time i can buy alot n yet save much money ... muz change a bit of my shoppin habits now , esp when time is different ... no one to support half of my living anymor ... but i am looking fwd to jan , to celebrate my dear dear bday ... i have some plans in my mind already ... hee .. blog until here first ... alot of ppl back already ... see ya ...
1:51 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008Y
unwanted ...
haiz , cannot believe i am actaully blogging when i am working .. but i think i can only do tis to make myself feel better ... dunno why , suddenly jus feel lost n unwanted ... no one seems to care ... no one seems to be there ... mayb i am thinkin too much ... but i do feel lonely sometimes ... omg ... tis is going to turn into an EMO blog ... haha ... sometimes life is boring , i dun even noe why i shuld b born .. arghh ... recently i am full with pain ... head pain , back pain , stomach pain n some other pain ... gosh , am i dying soon ? do i have an illness ? u noe the struggle between whether to go for check up anot .. go , u will feel happy when u noe that you are still healthy .. but if u are not , den depression ... suicide ... can i wait for the day 11-11-11 to come ...
anw , is too dangerous to ontinue blogging ... shuld blog next time or tonite ... anw , i spent alot on sat .. no mor shopping ... gosh ... 700 bucks ... woah ... 2 ted baker dresses ... bu i muz say .. every girl shuld spoilt themselves with one dress of theirs ... it's so lovely ... i like the 3 tat i tried , but of cos no money for 3 ... actually no money for 2 oso ... but take a risk once in a while ..
1:51 PM
