Sunday, December 28, 2008Y
tension ...
haiz ... hate to stay at hm now .. so much tension everywhere ... y my mum n dad become like tat ... haiz .. can i move out to stay ? but moving out wun solve any of their problems , mayb they will become worse ... haiz , today come hm with my dad tellin me tat my mum is angry with him ... i knew it , frm the day she is back , her whole face is black all along ... my dad claim tat he is stress ... gosh , i hope he will be able to stand it , wat if he becomes like tammy's dad , suddenly got suicide tots how ... it's goin to be a new year , y cant everyone jus b happy ... seriously , i am tried to see them like tat ... i wonder will they end up divorce ... wat is marriage ? to me , my dad is considered mr. good already ... he's hardworking , know alot of things , like when hse got things broken down , at least he still know how to fix it ... i wonder whether my dear dear even noe anot ... ok la , the reason my mum give is not totally not my dad fault ... but haiz , it's like becoming mor n mor serious ... n tis type of thing at most let u angry for 2 days ... i wonder if they continue like tat , they will only b cold war ... where shuld i stand ... no where ... haiz ... is hurtful to keep hearing my dad sighing ... he says now he everyday has nightmare when mum is back ... gosh .. i feel like i cant do anything to help ... useless there man ... i hate myself ...
i am broke man ... not totally broke , but i din save any money recently .. i jus wonder how come ... next month oso no saving ... wat has happen to me ... i jus browse through COACH website , n i saw a bag tat i reali like ... wonder how much will it be in sing dollar ... hopefully is jus ard 800 plus , so tat i can mayb still afford it if i jus save a bit harder ... money money ... y i cant win 4D ... i knew it ... sat was such a bad day for me , luck is not there with me , i definately wun win anything one ... i dread the idea of goin to work tomoro ... after yday work , i am totally exhausted ... i need a break ... at least for 2 days ... hopin new year will arrive early ... i cant wait ... ok , i shall start to prepare to slp ...
hopefully tomoro will be a better day ...
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